After my father died, his obituary revealed something my sisters and I had never known: we weren’t his only children. Four other names appeared. Two of them were sons living in New Hampshire. Months later, I decided to find them, and what I learned became the first crack in everything I thought I knew about my father’s past.

~ What does it feel like to love someone you fear? In this deeply personal episode, I share what it was like growing up in my father’s shadow, where moments of love could turn into fear without warning.

~ Before he was my father, he was simply Arthur. In this episode, I look beyond my horrible childhood memories to understand the complicated man behind them. This isn’t about excusing what happened, oh no… it’s trying to understand just how bizarre it all was.

~ What happened after my mother and I walked through the back door? You’re about to find out…

~ One afternoon, a simple conversation outside of the fence led to consequences I could never have imagined. I made a mistake that day, and it has stayed with me my entire life.

~ What was it like growing up on Morris Street?

Let’s go in and find out…

This is a true memoir~ It is about the abuse and neglect of 4 little girls at the hands of our father, Arthur and the woman who was completely helpless to stop any of it when trying to protect us…

because, not only did she fear him, she unconditionally loved him, and that was one of the hardest, strangest things to understand… my mother, Gloria.