In this episode, I finally open up and share something deeply personal — my Ibogaine journey, from the moment the day began through the night that changed everything.

I take you with me into the nerves, the prayers, the intentions, and then into the ceremony itself — the capsules, the visions, the purging, the fear, the tenderness, and the moments of love, clarity, and deep healing that felt like they were guiding me home to myself.

There were parts that were intense.

There were parts that were beautiful.

And there were moments that felt like the truth I had been waiting my whole life to see.

This was the night everything shifted — in my body, my heart, my relationships, my healing, and the way I see my life.

Next week, I’ll share what comes after…

The Gray Day, and the rest of our time in Mexico — leading into my 5-MeO-DMT experience.

Thank you for being here with me — and for letting me share this part of my story with you. 🤍

There’s a moment right before something changes your life — not when it happens, but when you realize there’s no turning back.

In Episode 9 of The Medicine Spoke, I take you with me through the quiet, sacred threshold before Ibogaine — from leaving home, crossing the border into Tijuana, and arriving at Ambio Life Sciences, to the moments of surrender, safety, and inner stillness that came before the medicine ever touched my body.

This episode isn’t about Ibogaine itself.

It’s about the decision, the waiting, and the subtle ways healing begins long before the ceremony.

I share the details of travel, trust, medical intake, the power of intuition over logic, and the deep emotional preparation that unfolded — including a traditional temazcal ceremony that opened the door to inner child healing.

If you’re standing on the edge of something big — healing, change, or choosing yourself — this episode is for you.

In the next episode, the medicine speaks.

In this episode, I’m finally sharing the part of my ibogaine story that no one really talks about — the calling, the curiosity, the preparation, and the unraveling that happened long before I ever stepped foot in Mexico.

It all began in January 2025 with a Joe Rogan episode… and a moment that shifted everything for me and my husband.

Today, I walk you through:

✨ Why I said yes to ibogaine even when I didn’t think I needed healing

✨ How the medicine began calling me before I even understood it

✨ The emotional rollercoaster of preparing for treatment

✨ What happened when the center went silent and fear finally showed up

✨ Meeting my preparation coach and learning what ibogaine really does

✨ My raw and vulnerable burn list — everything I wanted to release

✨ The intentions I hoped to gain, and how they became questions for the medicine

✨ The altar I created, the meaning behind every item, and why it mattered

✨ The final week before we left: the Zoom calls, the packing, the nerves, the excitement

This episode lays the foundation for everything that comes next.

Next week, in Episode 9, I’ll take you with me to Mexico —

the house, the people, the emotions,

and the two days that softened me into the deepest healing of my life.

If you’ve ever felt the medicine calling you…

or you’ve been curious about the process before an ibogaine journey…

this episode will make you feel seen, supported, and less alone.

Let’s peel back the first layer together.