What if the goal isn't to heal every part of yourself, but to learn how to live fully with all the parts that make you who you are?

In this episode of Diary of Discovery, I'm joined by Heidi Hinda Chadwick for an honest and thought-provoking conversation about shame, anxiety, identity and what it really means to feel fully alive.

Growing up with a deep sense of not being okay as she was, Heidi carried shame and guilt that would eventually manifest as panic attacks, depression and social anxiety in her twenties.

But her journey hasn't been about finding one solution or reaching a point where everything is suddenly fixed. Instead, it's been about slowly reconnecting with herself, reclaiming her voice and learning to embrace all the different parts of who she is.

We explore the impact of societal expectations and the stories we're taught about who we should be, what success looks like and how we're supposed to live our lives. Heidi shares how these expectations can disconnect us from ourselves and why learning to question them has been such an important part of her journey.

We also talk about the role of the body in healing, from yoga and dance to the importance of social connection, creative expression and finding ways to give ourselves a voice.

Heidi openly shares her experiences of being re-traumatised, her decision to take anti-anxiety medication and the role that medication and HRT have played in supporting her wellbeing. It's a reminder that there isn't one right way to navigate mental health, and that different forms of support can have a place in our lives.

One of the most powerful parts of our conversation is the idea of embracing our shadow, those parts of ourselves we might have spent years hiding, judging or trying to change.

Because what if we didn't need to become a perfectly healed version of ourselves before we could start enjoying our lives?

What if we could embrace the messy, complicated, beautiful reality of being human and allow ourselves to be fully alive right now?

In this episode, we explore:

• How childhood shame and guilt can shape our adult lives
• Growing up feeling like you're not okay as you are
• Heidi's experiences with panic attacks, depression and social anxiety
• The impact of societal and cultural expectations on our sense of self
• Why social connection is so important for our wellbeing
• Using yoga, dance and movement to reconnect with the body
• Reclaiming your voice through writing and creative expression
• The challenges of re-traumatisation during a healing journey
• Making personal decisions around medication and mental health support
• The role of HRT and hormonal health in Heidi's experience
• Understanding and embracing our shadow selves
• Letting go of the pressure to constantly fix or improve ourselves
• Questioning society's definitions of success, money and achievement
• Learning to define a meaningful life on your own terms
• Moving beyond healing and towards feeling fully alive

Connect with Heidi Hinda Chadwick:

https://www.instagram.com/heidihinda

Thank you for listening to the Podcast!

We would love to hear your thoughts on this episode.

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And if you want help on your own healing journey, then check out this Space to Grow 1:1 program - https://jackyclarke.co.uk/space-to-grow-11-package/

Until next week, happy healing.

What happens when you’ve built a successful career, ticked all the boxes, and still feel like something is missing?

In this episode, I’m joined by Heidi Brown to talk honestly about the healing journey that began when she realised that success wasn’t going to fill the gap she felt inside.

Heidi had built a successful career as a chiropractor, but underneath it was a feeling of being unfulfilled. That eventually led her into personal development and, ultimately, to a retreat that opened the door to much deeper work.

At the retreat, Heidi began to uncover childhood wounds around feeling unloved and not belonging within her family. Rather than simply understanding those experiences intellectually, she began to actually process them and see how they had shaped the way she experienced herself and the world.

We talk about what happened when Heidi started to fall in love with herself, and how that changed her relationship with possibility, choice and what she believed was available to her.

We also explore the much less glamorous side of transformation: leaving behind the career she had built, stepping into coaching, facing the fear of the unknown and learning to loosen her grip on perfectionism.

Heidi shares why she believes deep inner work matters, why having a neutral space held by someone else can be so powerful, and why healing isn't something we simply complete and move on from.

One of the biggest themes running through Heidi's current work is the core belief:

“There’s something wrong with me.”

And perhaps one of the most powerful parts of this conversation is what happens when we stop trying to fix ourselves and start getting curious about where that belief came from in the first place.

This is an honest conversation about healing, belonging, self-love, identity and the ongoing process of coming home to yourself.

In this episode, we talk about:

• Feeling unfulfilled despite outward success
• How childhood experiences can shape our sense of belonging
• The impact of feeling unloved or like there is something wrong with you
• What deep inner work can actually look like
• Heidi’s transformative retreat experience
• Learning to fall in love with yourself
• Moving from chiropractic into coaching
• The fear that comes with leaving behind what is familiar
• Perfectionism and the need to get everything right
• Why having a neutral space to explore yourself can be so powerful
• Conscious creation and seeing new possibilities
• Why healing is an ongoing journey rather than something we simply “finish”
• The importance of authenticity when sharing your own story

Find Heidi here: https://www.instagram.com/heidibrowncoach

Thank you for listening to the Podcast!

We would love to hear your thoughts on this episode.

If you feel you want to share your own healing journey, please fill in this short form - https://forms.gle/LpYvkkCB1UFWWz8r8

If you want to stay in touch and hear about upcoming guests then pop over to Instagram and follow along - https://www.instagram.com/thediaryofdiscovery/

And if you want help on your own healing journey, then check out this Space to Grow 1:1 program - https://jackyclarke.co.uk/space-to-grow-11-package/

Until next week, happy healing.

We often talk about healing as though it is simply about becoming a happier, healthier or more confident version of ourselves.

But what happens when healing means letting go of who you used to be?

Sometimes the parts of ourselves we are trying to change were once the very things that helped us cope, survive or feel safe. The people-pleasing. The need to be strong. The constant achieving. The overgiving. The ways we learned to protect ourselves when we didn't have the tools or awareness we have today.

So when those parts of us begin to change, there can be grief.

In this episode, Jacky explores the often overlooked grief that can come with healing and outgrowing previous versions of ourselves.

She talks about learning to look back at who we were with compassion rather than judgment, recognising that we were doing the best we could with the knowledge, capacity and resources we had at the time.

Healing isn't always one huge breakthrough. Sometimes it's a series of tiny shifts that slowly change the way you see yourself, your relationships and your life.

And somewhere in that process, you can find yourself in the uncomfortable space between who you were and who you're becoming.

Jacky explores why we don't always need to rush out of that "in-between" space and immediately work out who we're supposed to become next.

She also talks about the grief that can come with outgrowing relationships, dreams, identities and expectations for the life we thought we were going to have.

Because two things can be true at the same time.

You can be deeply grateful for where you are now and still mourn what you've lost.

You can know that something was right to leave behind and still miss it.

You can be excited about who you're becoming and still feel sadness for the person you used to be.

And perhaps healing isn't about hating who you were.

Perhaps it's about being able to look back and say:

Thank you for getting me here. But I don't need to be you anymore.

• Why healing can come with grief
• The survival strategies and behaviours we can outgrow
• Why we shouldn't judge the versions of ourselves that helped us survive
• How healing often happens through small shifts rather than one big breakthrough
• What it feels like to be in the "in-between" space of becoming
• Grieving relationships, dreams and versions of ourselves we've outgrown
• Why gratitude and grief can exist at the same time
• Learning to look at your past self with compassion
• Why you don't have to know exactly who you're becoming yet
• How to thank an old version of yourself without continuing to live as her

What version of yourself are you still holding onto, even though you've already outgrown her?

And perhaps even more importantly:

Can you thank her for getting you here without needing to take her with you into everything that comes next?

Thank you for listening to the Podcast!

We would love to hear your thoughts on this episode.

If you feel you want to share your own healing journey, please fill in this short form - https://forms.gle/LpYvkkCB1UFWWz8r8

If you want to stay in touch and hear about upcoming guests then pop over to Instagram and follow along - https://www.instagram.com/thediaryofdiscovery/

And if you want help on your own healing journey, then check out this Space to Grow 1:1 program - https://jackyclarke.co.uk/space-to-grow-11-package/

Until next week, happy healing.