I always thought i’d be a mom...

In this episode, I unpack the quiet ache of wanting to be a mom—when life hasn’t followed the roadmap, and time feels like it’s folding in on itself. I talk about what it means to carry maternal love in a body that may never get to use it the way it was meant to. This isn’t about pity or perfection—it’s about the longing for a “simple kind of life” that somehow feels out of reach. I reflect on expectations, aging, grief, and hope, all tangled together in this space of maybe, maybe not.

Black mascaras already run, but the tears keep flowing...

In this episode, we’re talking about the kind of grief that doesn’t always get acknowledged—the quiet kind. The kind you carry when you lose a cousin, an uncle, or someone who mattered deeply, even if you weren’t seen as their closest. It’s the heartbreak that lives just outside the frame, the mourning done in the background. If you’ve ever loved from the sidelines and grieved in silence, this one’s for you.

Now you only bring me black roses and they crumble into dust when they’re held.

Join me on a personal journey of going no contact with a parent, exploring the emotional complexity of setting boundaries, grieving the relationship, and finding peace. I reflect on the abuse and instability that led to my decision, the guilt and societal pressure that often come with it, and how I’ve committed to breaking generational trauma. Tune in for a powerful conversation on choosing peace over toxic connections.