Hey friends! This week, I am not releasing a new episode because your girl needs a little mental health minute, but not to worry! I will be back! <3

I've got some exciting interviews coming up for The Angsty Pod and will return to either a different diary, or back to college when I'm feeling a little more calm and ready.

Thanks for your patience and big love!

For more info on my work as a writing coach or to sign up for workshops, head to www.doulaofwords.com

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To sign up to be a guest, please email Yoda at yoda@thedoulaofwords.com - we'd love to have you!

Find my books here <3

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Kid's Help Phone: You can reach a professional counsellor at Kids Help Phone in English or French 24/7 by calling 1-800-668-6868

9-8-8: Call or text from anywhere in Canada or the U.S., anytime

CMHA: Call Reach Out at 1-866-933-2023 to receive mental health and/or addictions support

Mike and Mark and Matt... oh my!

First semester is over, and I'm home for the holidays. And, you guessed it, drama ensues!

I finally hook up with my friend Mark but it doesn't go the way either of us planned.

I have an unplanned hookup with a guy named "Jeff" who is nice enough, but we just don't click. I pretend I don't know why but, spoiler alert: it's because I've started sleeping with women!

But also because I feel completely ashamed of how I look and feel. I start a nasty binge-and-purge cycle which became hard for me to talk about in this episode so I'm saving it for later. <3 Basically, I can almost pinpoint the moment my ED is lit ablaze -- I find a pro-ana community and the spiral begins.

"I was so tired today. Not just tired but woozy, slow, inhibited." <3 Breaks my heart!!!

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If you're struggling with ED, the CMHA has resources that can (and do!) help <3

https://ontario.cmha.ca/documents/understanding-and-finding-help-for-eating-disorders/

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For more info on my work as a writing coach or to sign up for workshops, head to www.doulaofwords.com

Follow on IG & threads @doulaofwords

To sign up to be a guest, please email Yoda at yoda@thedoulaofwords.com - we'd love to have you!

Find my books here <3

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Kid's Help Phone: You can reach a professional counsellor at Kids Help Phone in English or French 24/7 by calling 1-800-668-6868

9-8-8: Call or text from anywhere in Canada or the U.S., anytime

CMHA: Call Reach Out at 1-866-933-2023 to receive mental health and/or addictions support

This episode covers most of my first semester of college and is a total whirlwind. One minute, I'm quoting Buddha. The next minute, I'm making out with everyone's girlfriend at the bar. I'm blacking out every Monday and will flirt with anything that has a pulse.

I spend most of my time apologizing to my friends for how I treated them the night before. I can't keep my crushes straight. The only guys I am romantically interested in are the ones who are the meanest to me.

It gets dark. Like, really dark.

But there's some beauty in this one, too. I reminisce about my friend Mark and how close we came to a different outcome. My friendships with the girls in my dorm bloom into something real. I get over Bob and Rhonda and do well in my first semester, despite showing up to class drunk or hungover most of the time.

My memories from this time are not totally accurate and although it was hard to reflect on them, it's been good to go back to some of these moments too. <3

For more info on my work as a writing coach or to sign up for workshops, head to www.doulaofwords.com

Follow on IG & threads @doulaofwords

To sign up to be a guest, please email Yoda at yoda@thedoulaofwords.com - we'd love to have you!

Find my books here <3

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Kid's Help Phone: You can reach a professional counsellor at Kids Help Phone in English or French 24/7 by calling 1-800-668-6868

9-8-8: Call or text from anywhere in Canada or the U.S., anytime

CMHA: Call Reach Out at 1-866-933-2023 to receive mental health and/or addictions support