This one’s raw. I recorded it sitting in the Trader Joe’s parking lot, feeling more in my body than maybe ever before. I talk about choosing a new way — and I speak from the middle of the reckoning.

When I started the bus project, I was still in fight-or-flight, chasing some shimmering oasis out there so I wouldn’t have to feel what was in here. But pain doesn’t vanish. It waits — like a rubber band around the waist, anchoring us to a moment we’ll ever be able to outrun.

In this moment, I got: wisdom and scars have something in common — they have to be earned. No one can walk the fire for you. This is me, standing in it, choosing to become whole from the inside out.

We are the tuning forks. We are the sound bowls. We embody the frequency of whatever it is we are carrying inside of us — or running from. I’m not looking for a safe place anymore… I am the safe place.

I end this episode with a short soul song — a prayer to reclaim the lost soul parts we’ve scattered along the way.

⚠️ Disclaimer

This podcast is for educational and harm-reduction purposes only. I am not encouraging or advocating the use of any illegal substances. No substances were consumed during the making of this episode. Altered states—whether achieved through breathwork, drumming, or plant medicines—can impact perception and decision-making. Exploring these realms without proper guidance, preparation, and integration support can be dangerous. Please journey responsibly and in alignment with your own truth, safety, and sovereignty.

In the whirlwind of modern life, my husband Matt and I have learned to make space—sacred space—for the kind of remembering that only comes through deep inner journeying. When things feel sticky, stagnant, or spiraling, we return to the wellspring of connection that lives beneath the noise. Sometimes this portal opens through silence. Other times through rhythm, breath, sex or the support of ancient plant allies. There are an unlimited number of ways we as energetic beings can reach transpersonal states.

This episode is my first journey report—a story shared not as prescription, but as offering. I do not believe in one-size-fits-all healing. Plants are not pills, and healing is not linear. But story? Story is medicine we can all receive.

This is the tale of one deep dive into the mystery. I trust it will land on the ears of the ones who are meant to hear it. And I hope, in some small way, it reminds you: you are not alone.

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⚠️ Disclaimer

This podcast is for educational and harm-reduction purposes only. I am not encouraging or advocating the use of any illegal substances. No substances were consumed during the making of this episode. Altered states—whether achieved through breathwork, drumming, or plant medicines—can impact perception and decision-making. Exploring these realms without proper guidance, preparation, and integration support can be dangerous. Please journey responsibly and in alignment with your own truth, safety, and sovereignty.

Hiya friend, and welcome back! In this episode of Sex, Drugs, & Sound Bowls, I share a deeply personal aha moment that landed this winter—one that cracked me wide open. What started as an attempt to record a podcast with Matt turned into a powerful reflection on trauma, intimacy, and the freeze response that shows up in so many of our most vulnerable moments.

I speak candidly about how, for years, I couldn’t fully access the realm of sensuality and sexual connection in our marriage—how my body would freeze, how my past held me hostage, and how Matt never made me feel wrong for that. I saw, in his fear of the camera, a mirror of my own journey through healing. This episode is a love letter to the quiet, persistent ways we can hold space for one another and a celebration of the patient, playful, pressure-free invitation Matt extended to me—back to aliveness, back to the land of the living.

This one’s tender, and it’s real. A story of grace, nervous system truths, and the kind of love that doesn’t push, but waits.

Hi Wildflower!

In this episode, I’m sharing how I’ve been harmonizing with the energy of spring—not through big changes, but by paying attention to what’s growing right at my feet.

Lately, I’ve been practicing eating one wild thing a day—nettles, dandelions, yarrow—plants that are bursting through the earth all around me here in the Pacific Northwest. These wild greens carry something I’ve been craving: deep nourishment, aliveness, connection.

We live in a time where our food has become so sterile and depleted. Our bodies—made of more microbes than human cells—are longing for wildness, for minerals, for something real. And for me, connecting to the land through food has become a way to remember who I am.

I talk about how I’m letting the season guide my sleep, my rhythms, my care—and how tuning into the smaller cycles within the bigger ones has helped me feel more balanced and alive.

These are just the things that are supporting me right now. My hope is that something here might stir something in you—something you can make your own, in your own timing, your own rhythm.

Welcome to Sex, Drugs & Sound Bowls, a podcast for the wild-hearted seekers, the deep feelers, and those unraveling the old stories in search of their own truth.

In this trailer, I share the spark that ignited this podcast—my personal healing journey, the unraveling of anxiety and self-doubt, and the power of tuning out the noise to finally hear my own inner guidance. This space is not about fixing or perfecting. It’s about showing up messy, honest, and curious. It’s about grace unfolding in real time.

If you’re tired of being told what to do, and ready to remember your own medicine, you’re in the right place.

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Hi sweet souls and welcome back! This is the episode that just might get me excommunicated. Here, I dive into what it means to be a conscious curator of your life—an intentional, mindful author of your reality, weaving together the threads of your experience with intention, mindfulness, and gratitude.

I explore how the stories we tell ourselves about the things we experience—the dramas, as well as the successes—can either bring more suffering or peace. We have the power to choose the narratives we create about our lives. Isn’t that empowering?

I also reflect on how not getting what we want can actually be a gift. As children of the universe, we can never fully see the bigger picture. We often can’t even imagine what the universe has in store for us. Sometimes, the very things we think we need or desire might not be part of the plan, but that doesn’t mean we’re being punished. It could be the universe guiding us toward something far more expansive than we can see in the moment.

The stories we tell ourselves about who we are, our experiences, and our relationship to the world go straight to the core of our being, shaping our sense of connection—or disconnection—with everything around us. These stories form our beliefs, and our beliefs create our reality. But the first story many of us are told—the origin story of humanity, love, God, and our place in it all—is one of sin, punishment, exile, and condemnation. Deep down, many of us carry this feeling of lack, this fear of wrath, and the belief that questioning or stepping outside the lines will lead to punishment. This keeps us small and stuck.

But what if we began to rewrite those stories?

In this episode, I offer a reimagined perspective on the story of Adam and Eve—a view that might get me excommunicated, but one that rings with truth through every cell of my being. This version resonates deeply with my experience of the One, of the Beloved, of universal Source, energy, and love. It invites more compassion and explores how contradiction is the gateway to free will. I believe that a benevolent God was always waiting for us to make the choice that would take us on a journey that would last through the ages—from the illusion of separation back to unity with the One.

In this episode of Sex, Drugs, & Sound Bowls, I reflect on what it means to hit rock bottom—and how pain, when we truly honor it, can become a powerful portal. A guide. A signal pointing us toward the parts of our lives, bodies, and hearts that need our attention.

Hi friends! Welcome back! From breakdowns and debt to doubt and overwhelm, I share what it’s been like to stop fixing and start feeling. To trust that the unraveling has its own intelligence. That maybe we’re not meant to push through, but to listen deeply—because pain doesn’t come to punish, it comes to realign.

When we slow down, feel it all, and tend to what’s hurting, we create space for healing, harmony, and flow to return. And maybe… that’s what abundance really is.

Hi friends, it's me, Jessie! Welcome to my very first episode! In this first episode of Sex, Drugs, and Sound Bowls, I dive into the process of letting go of the need to micromanage and control every little detail of life. I explore how we can stop waiting for the “perfect time” and instead start showing up authentically, just as we are. Join me as I reflect on my journey to meet the spirit of the new year, discovering how playfulness and gratitude can open the door to divinity, abundance, and JOY. We’ll explore how grace unfolds in every moment—reminding us that everything, from the good to the bad, the beautiful to the ugly, is happening for us, not to us.

I also share a little guided meditation + some tips for how you can start to play with your own inner guidance and higher consciousness, weaving the wisdom of life into something usable and meaningful. Let’s begin the journey together!