Today is a momentous day. The day where I finally take Matt’s podcast virginity.

We’ve been together 100’s of lifetimes, 12 years in this one. I’m the talker, the nurturer, the dreamer, the visionary. He’s the rock, the anchor, the safety, the builder.

Sharing here was vulnerable and brave of my sweet Matty but I am so glad he was brave enough to do it because he is truly a testament to the power of unconditional LOVE. I do not know who I would be without his tender, fierce and unwavering love.

Here we dip our toes in the waters of remembering and relate a bit of our journey together and how we have used psychedelics mindfully and therapeutically to support ourselves in healing together and apart on the Journey.

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⚠️ Disclaimer

This podcast is for educational and harm-reduction purposes only. I am not encouraging or advocating the use of any illegal substances. No substances were consumed during the making of this episode. Altered states--whether achieved through breathwork, drumming, or plant medicines--can impact perception and decision-making. Exploring these realms without proper guidance, preparation, and integration support can be dangerous. Please journey responsibly and in alignment with your own truth, safety, and sovereignty.

This episode begins with the retelling of a pretty fresh and very real story of the time I smelled propane in my house… and still almost made fried rice because I “didn’t want to make a fuss.” (Yes, the firefighters later told me there was a lot of propane in the air. Yes, I could’ve actually blown up my family. No, I’m not proud.)

From there, I open up about all the ways we learn to override our intuition. Those tiny gut hits, body signals, and psychic whispers that say “Hey you, something’s off.”

Most of us were trained out of listening to ourselves long before adulthood: told we were too much, too sensitive, too dramatic, or just flat-out wrong about what we felt.

I share a few moments from my own life where I ignored my inner knowing and paid a high price, and how I’m learning to alchemize those patterns instead of shaming myself for them. This episode is all about reclaiming the body’s intelligence, reconnecting to the inner signals we’ve silenced, and remembering that intuition isn’t mystical!! It’s a guiding light and practical AF.

Sometimes it even saves you from accidental self-made explosions.

✨Find me @JessieSirenMusic

⚠️ Disclaimer

This podcast is for educational and harm-reduction purposes only. I am not encouraging or advocating the use of any illegal substances. No substances were consumed during the making of this episode. Altered states--whether achieved through breathwork, drumming, or plant medicines--can impact perception and decision-making. Exploring these realms without proper guidance, preparation, and integration support can be dangerous. Please journey responsibly and in alignment with your own truth, safety, and sovereignty.

🎙️I’m your host, Jessie Siren! Oooor maybe not a host anymore. Maybe just a woman documenting the way of her own becoming🌿

These are my transmissions (aka ramblings) as I reconsider what it means to be a human living in authentic expression, to feel, to soften, to embody, to stop fucking living to feed the beast of performance and just LIVE and move/speak/share in the ways my spirit feels compelled to.

From heart-opening medicine & ceremony, to life itself as the ceremony & every moment the medicine, today I’m reflecting on how love deepens, how the comedown dissolves, and how the sun and moon learn to dance. On the medicine of friendship that calls you out and calls you IN, the beauty of discernment and boundaries that make not just safety possible, but play, rest, & BEINGNESS, and finally on the magic of surrender ie learning how to let the universe surprise & WOW me instead of demanding things come in the way (and time) I expect they should.

THANK YOU, for being with me on this wild path of breakdowns, breakthroughs, ramblings and all! MWAH! Here’s to softening, to trusting, and to allowing ourselves to be wowed by life over and over again, darlings.

✨Find me @JessieSirenMusic

⚠️ Disclaimer

This podcast is for educational and harm-reduction purposes only. I am not encouraging or advocating the use of any illegal substances. No substances were consumed during the making of this episode. Altered states--whether achieved through breathwork, drumming, or plant medicines--can impact perception and decision-making. Exploring these realms without proper guidance, preparation, and integration support can be dangerous. Please journey responsibly and in alignment with your own truth, safety, and sovereignty.

Hi cutie pies! Today I hit record just after a full-blown meltdown. Complete with a handful of F-bombs and an entire pint of Cold Stone Creamery ice cream (coffee flavor + oreo cookie dough fudge and almonds duh). Because this is the journey too. From there, I dive deep into the transformative magic of devotional repetition—how intentionally repeating sacred phrases, actions, practices and ways of being can and has reshaped my life in unimaginable ways.

I explore the metaphor-rich world of microdosing mushrooms as a guide, especially when paired with intentional rituals and nervous system rewiring practices. I share personal protocols, how I cleanse the channel to hear my deepest truth, and what it means to let your inner knowing lead the way.

And then there’s the forest. 700 women. And a profound remembering: wealth is multidimensional, and true joy lives within the eternal, untouchable Summer of our Being, not in the material things that one second bring us happiness and the next bring us pain (ie new car HAPPY! new car scratched NOT HAPPY!). This episode is about imagination as a portal, mushrooms as guides, repetition as pure magic, and alchemy as our birthright.

THANK YOU, for being with me on this wild path of tantrums, transmissions, breakthroughs and all! MWAH!

One of my go-to "Breathe with Sandy" videos (just five minutes to reset!) :

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8GTd3u_qwGA&t=8s

⚠️ Disclaimer

This podcast is for educational and harm-reduction purposes only. I am not encouraging or advocating the use of any illegal substances. No substances were consumed during the making of this episode. Altered states—whether achieved through breathwork, drumming, or plant medicines—can impact perception and decision-making. Exploring these realms without proper guidance, preparation, and integration support can be dangerous. Please journey responsibly and in alignment with your own truth, safety, and sovereignty.

In this episode I share from the eye of the storm—smack in the middle of a breakdown that’s becoming a breakthrough. We’ll explore nervous system regulation through the lens of Deb Dana’s book Anchored, and how her teachings are landing in my lived experience in powerful and practical ways. I talk about how pushing forward from a state of panic only plants seeds of more chaos, and how choosing to slow down, root in safety, and respond differently begins to change the whole story. I open up about how old, protective neural pathways have quietly kept me stuck—how hidden triggers often arise in the mundane—and how I’ve begun to meet them with curiosity, compassion, and new choices. I share three foundational stepping stones that are guiding me toward a more present and embodied life:

1. Creating a safe internal and external environment to help cue my system back into the safety of the moment. 2. Deepening connection with my inner voice—the knowing within that speaks with the voice of Source, Unity, Love.

3. Using my senses as a gateway to return to the here and now, anchoring through what I see, smell, feel, hear, and say.

And most importantly, I speak to the power of intentional self talk—using my own voice with deep conviction and emotion to declare the reality I am choosing:

“I am safe. Safe to move slow. Safe to be in my body. Safe to be all the way here now. I embody the wisdom of the ages.”

This episode is about nervous system healing that doesn’t come through grand catharsis, but through consistent, sacred repetition in the everyday. Through tea in the sun. Through mindful self-talk. Through remembering again and again: we are not broken—we are coming home.

Inspired by Anchored by Deb Dana👉 Buy it through Bookshop.org and support local bookstores!

⚠️ Disclaimer

This podcast is for educational and harm-reduction purposes only. I am not encouraging or advocating the use of any illegal substances. No substances were consumed during the making of this episode. Altered states—whether achieved through breathwork, drumming, or plant medicines—can impact perception and decision-making. Exploring these realms without proper guidance, preparation, and integration support can be dangerous. Please journey responsibly and in alignment with your own truth, safety, and sovereignty.

This one’s raw. I recorded it sitting in the Trader Joe’s parking lot, feeling more in my body than maybe ever before. I talk about choosing a new way — and I speak from the middle of the reckoning.

When I started the bus project, I was still in fight-or-flight, chasing some shimmering oasis out there so I wouldn’t have to feel what was in here. But pain doesn’t vanish. It waits — like a rubber band around the waist, anchoring us to a moment we’ll ever be able to outrun.

In this moment, I got: wisdom and scars have something in common — they have to be earned. No one can walk the fire for you. This is me, standing in it, choosing to become whole from the inside out.

We are the tuning forks. We are the sound bowls. We embody the frequency of whatever it is we are carrying inside of us — or running from. I’m not looking for a safe place anymore… I am the safe place.

I end this episode with a short soul song — a prayer to reclaim the lost soul parts we’ve scattered along the way.

⚠️ Disclaimer

This podcast is for educational and harm-reduction purposes only. I am not encouraging or advocating the use of any illegal substances. No substances were consumed during the making of this episode. Altered states—whether achieved through breathwork, drumming, or plant medicines—can impact perception and decision-making. Exploring these realms without proper guidance, preparation, and integration support can be dangerous. Please journey responsibly and in alignment with your own truth, safety, and sovereignty.

In the whirlwind of modern life, my husband Matt and I have learned to make space—sacred space—for the kind of remembering that only comes through deep inner journeying. When things feel sticky, stagnant, or spiraling, we return to the wellspring of connection that lives beneath the noise. Sometimes this portal opens through silence. Other times through rhythm, breath, sex or the support of ancient plant allies. There are an unlimited number of ways we as energetic beings can reach transpersonal states.

This episode is my first journey report—a story shared not as prescription, but as offering. I do not believe in one-size-fits-all healing. Plants are not pills, and healing is not linear. But story? Story is medicine we can all receive.

This is the tale of one deep dive into the mystery. I trust it will land on the ears of the ones who are meant to hear it. And I hope, in some small way, it reminds you: you are not alone.

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⚠️ Disclaimer

This podcast is for educational and harm-reduction purposes only. I am not encouraging or advocating the use of any illegal substances. No substances were consumed during the making of this episode. Altered states—whether achieved through breathwork, drumming, or plant medicines—can impact perception and decision-making. Exploring these realms without proper guidance, preparation, and integration support can be dangerous. Please journey responsibly and in alignment with your own truth, safety, and sovereignty.

Hiya friend, and welcome back! In this episode of Sex, Drugs, & Sound Bowls, I share a deeply personal aha moment that landed this winter—one that cracked me wide open. What started as an attempt to record a podcast with Matt turned into a powerful reflection on trauma, intimacy, and the freeze response that shows up in so many of our most vulnerable moments.

I speak candidly about how, for years, I couldn’t fully access the realm of sensuality and sexual connection in our marriage—how my body would freeze, how my past held me hostage, and how Matt never made me feel wrong for that. I saw, in his fear of the camera, a mirror of my own journey through healing. This episode is a love letter to the quiet, persistent ways we can hold space for one another and a celebration of the patient, playful, pressure-free invitation Matt extended to me—back to aliveness, back to the land of the living.

This one’s tender, and it’s real. A story of grace, nervous system truths, and the kind of love that doesn’t push, but waits.