After a week surrounded by my beautiful sister and her daughters I am HYPED on femme energy! Lashes tinted and lifted, make over glammed out, and manicures abundant. This episode is me honoring the unveiling and teaching in every moment through everything, and specifically in this case: fake nails. Did ya know they can be a portal? An access point. A small, physical reminder that the divine feminine doesn't rush, she moves slow. She rests. She plays. She luxuriates. She doesn't grip life like it's about to run away from her.This episode is recorded live, mid-process, a little clunky, but I’m inviting you into a more vibrant living radiant experience of the feminine within (boys and girls alike!) through my weird magical nail portal, and hoping you’ll to do the same for me.

What basic everyday mundane magical portals to the divine feminine are you enlisting?!Ashes to Wildflowers | A Sacred Women's Renewal Retreat Info here: https://jessiesiren.ju.mp/#retreatConnect with me! In the comments, socials or by email: sexdrugsandsoundbowls@gmail.com✨Find me@JessieSirenOfficial (IG)@JessieSiren (TikTok)@SirenSkoolie (IG/TikTok)⚠️ DisclaimerThis podcast is for educational and harm-reduction purposes only. I am not encouraging or advocating the use of any illegal substances. No substances were consumed during the making of this episode. Altered states--whether achieved through breathwork, drumming, or plant medicines--can impact perception and decision making. Exploring these realms without proper guidance, preparation, and integration support can be dangerous. Please journey responsibly and in alignment with your own truth, safety, and sovereignty.

This one is so special. Matty boy is opening up more and more and I just loved getting to hear him use his voice! As for me? This 5-MeO-DMT journey rocked my world in a way few things in this life have. It’s taken time to metabolize, and it’s been hard to find the words to translate it into shareable, useful information. No research or citations here, just me and Matt sitting down to talk about the medicine that changed us both in radically different ways.

I took 5-MeO-DMT first, back in October. Matt didn't take his journey until this May, seven months later. So this episode isn't a single shared trip story. It’s two separate ceremonies, two nervous systems, two very different unfoldings, held up next to each other. Our hope is to share some polarity. To unpack our shared experience and feeling that there is “no bad journey”, and that whatever comes up, it’s all useful information.

in this episode:

* the polarity between our experiences, where they mirrored each other, and where they didn't

* the beauty and power of circle & ceremony

* the specific gifts each of us walked away with

* why integration is so important

* the role of the space holder / facilitator, and why that container matters as much as the medicine itself

* why the journey doesn't end when the ceremony does

This is a playful conversation about journeying, about contrast, about twu wuv! We share how the same medicine can meet two people in totally different places, and what it's like to witness someone you love go through something you can't fully follow them into.

As always: this is personal experience, not medical advice. 5-MeO-DMT is a powerful and serious substance, please do your own research, work with an experienced facilitator, and never go into ceremony unprepared.

Ashes to Wildflowers | A Sacred Women's Renewal Retreat

Info here: https://jessiesiren.ju.mp/#retreat

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This podcast is for educational and harm-reduction purposes only. I am not encouraging or advocating the use of any illegal substances. No substances were consumed during the making of this episode. Altered states--whether achieved through breathwork, drumming, or plant medicines--can impact perception and decision making. Exploring these realms without proper guidance, preparation, and integration support can be dangerous. Please journey responsibly and in alignment with your own truth, safety, and sovereignty.

This month I come face to face with full nervous system collapse: my first smattering of grays, exhaustion, zero sex drive, endless wallowing and finally hitting rock bottom.

A deep heart to heart with Universe where I cry out for help and receive a clear answer: there isn't the way or the truth, there is only ever your way and your truth. When I get lost in my mind and look outside for answers, it's a lot of disappointment. When I connect deeply to what I call my IGS, or my Inner Guidance System, I am never let down.

I share the power of keeping a dream log & heeding the dreamworld's call to follow the breadcrumbs. The breadcrumbs lead me to a yoga mat on the bank of the river, to the art of doing nothing, and back to the still, quiet voice of my inner knowing. I share how Universe schools me in the unraveling of old fear patterns and learning the art of discernment: aka what is excitement aka fear of the unknown, and what is warning-fear, I am shown the eternal procreant urge, and how if I can’t find peace here and now, ultimately there is no other side, and if I am waiting for it, I will always be waiting. I am shown that everything I’ve ever wanted is here, and now and in the stillness and quiet the magnitude of this deep medicine changes everything for me.

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This podcast is for educational and harm-reduction purposes only. I am not encouraging or advocating the use of any illegal substances. No substances were consumed during the making of this episode. Altered states--whether achieved through breathwork, drumming, or plant medicines--can impact perception and decision making. Exploring these realms without proper guidance, preparation, and integration support can be dangerous. Please journey responsibly and in alignment with your own truth, safety, and sovereignty.

Back from holding space at a plant medicine retreat, twitterpated with inspiration and then home + almost immediately deflated by the matrix of the mind, marketing from stress, and losing the thread of myself entirely.

So I took a walk with Spirit (which I always say is my way back, and then somehow forget for months and wonder whyyy am I flailing?! 😂) What came through was clear: the energy you market FROM is the energy you amplify. SO LET"S MAKE IT FUCKING DELICIOUS ENERGY!

"IF YOU ARE EVERYONE'S CUP OF TEA, YOU ARE WATER" comes through & I realize I want to be so potent, so unapologetically MUCH, that some people BLECK and spit me right out, because that's skunk medicine. The ones not for it run. The ones who are, come running toward that muchness.

Oh, and we open with a summer herbal chia hydration elixir that tastes like an arnold palmer and intelligently heals and hydrates the body. You're gonna want this recipe.

Early bird pricing for Ashes to Wildflowers ends June 15th — save $75 on our women's plant medicine retreat in Roy, WA. And The Sacred Weave of the Rose sound bath series begins June 14th — Root, Thorn & Bloom, three sessions, $50 each.

Both at jessiesiren.ju.mp

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⚠️ Disclaimer

This podcast is for educational and harm-reduction purposes only. I am not encouraging or advocating the use of any illegal substances. No substances were consumed during the making of this episode. Altered states--whether achieved through breathwork, drumming, or plant medicines--can impact perception and decision making. Exploring these realms without proper guidance, preparation, and integration support can be dangerous. Please journey responsibly and in alignment with your own truth, safety, and sovereignty.

Season 2, Episode 5

HI FRIENDS! Settled in with a warm cup of horsetail tea and here to take you on a journey through some of the most powerful tools and ideas I've been sitting with lately.

I open up my windowsill apothecary and walk you through the every day health boosting treasures I’ve been storing there. From tooth health to electrolytes replenishing (it's not a very far jump).

From there we dive into Wu Wei, the ancient principle of effortless action that has haunted me for years like an angel on my shoulder reminding me to heave a big *sigh* from time to time and let the energy of life work it’s magic through me. I share a real life experience that brought its full spectrum meaning home for me in a radical and powerful new way.

Then we get into one of my favorite lessons I come back to again and again in the spiral dance of life: the art of writing a better story. The narratives we construct in our minds about other people, their motives, their actions….they're always just that: stories. So why not make them ones that free us rather than bind us? That lighten us rather than aggravate us? The stories born from the matrix of the mind aren't enemies, they're messengers, revealing something true about you.

We play in land of invisible energetic strings, I KNOW you know, the ones that unconsciously drain us, and the profound liberation that comes from plugging those leaks and reclaiming your vitality, clarity, and agency. Think of it as energetic housekeeping for your soul.

And we close with one of my favorite truths: speak to a king and a king will arrive. Our words are spells. They can nurture, nourish, and elevate or quietly erode the relationships and realities we're building.

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⚠️ Disclaimer

This podcast is for educational and harm-reduction purposes only. I am not encouraging or advocating the use of any illegal substances. No substances were consumed during the making of this episode. Altered states--whether achieved through breathwork, drumming, or plant medicines--can impact perception and decision making. Exploring these realms without proper guidance, preparation, and integration support can be dangerous. Please journey responsibly and in alignment with your own truth, safety, and sovereignty.

Season 2, Episode 4

A prayer and blessing for you, and for me:

Source. Love. God. Universe, please continue to show me what I am blind to. What I have been unwilling or unable to see that is holding me back from living my fullest, most compassionate, most ecstatic, love-infused, joy-infused existence. Show me. Teach me. Teach me in ways that wow me and delight me and leave me wondering. Teach me in ways that integrate the wisdom of the learning seamlessly. As you have, as you do, as you will. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.

The rigidity, the inflexibility, the immobility of my skull bones was causing headaches and tension and somewhere in the middle of the night it became a beautiful metaphor for me. Because the same rigidity and immobility I was feeling mentally and emotionally was also impeding the flow of the energy of LIFE through me, and causing suffering in my life. This episode is an offering of a few different ways I work with that inflexibility.

The past few months have been a wild ride. So many big changes, painful and grief-filled things happening. And just like on a good roller coaster, even when you're excited, even when you're grateful for the ride, there is a bracing that happens. A tension that sneaks into the body. And that tension, that immobility, causes suffering if it is not acknowledged and released. After a couple months of dealing with death, being triggered in really big ways through toxic family patterns playing themselves out, finding myself cut off from people I needed to hold protective boundaries with, entering into grief and sadness about that separation, I wanted to share what's actually helping.

In this episode I walk you through:

• Cranial release: a practice that has genuinely changed things for me (linking the incredible work of Dr. Karen Drummond's chiropractic)
• Myofascial release: because fascia is the webbing of life, the connective tissue through which all of the body's major systems: muscles, ligaments, tissues. are woven. When it is rigid and closed off, that affects our feeling of ease, flow, and vibrancy. Special shout-out to Dr. Nancy Kulik who introduced me to this life-changing practice, and I'm sharing this myofascial release from Human Garage
• Deep stretching through the neck
• Shaking the body out: and yes, special shout-out to the year I spent learning to twerk
• Five Rhythms dance: my final and ultimate somatic practice. I spend some time talking about the power of rhythm, how the five different rhythms correlate to the cycles we see in nature and the cycles we see reflected back to us through even the human cycle of life. I'm sharing my Spotify Wild Woman playlist that I shuffle for a five rhythms dance flow

And I close with something I've been developing, Psychosomatic Face Yoga, a new series I started on social media because I kept noticing a missing link in all the face yoga and facial release content out there. This series is about noting the signs on the surface and going to the root. From the inside out and the outside in, let’s work some things out together, wildflowers.

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⚠️ Disclaimer

This podcast is for educational and harm-reduction purposes only. I am not encouraging or advocating the use of any illegal substances. No substances were consumed during the making of this episode. Altered states--whether achieved through breathwork, drumming, or plant medicines--can impact perception and decision making. Exploring these realms without proper guidance, preparation, and integration support can be dangerous. Please journey responsibly and in alignment with your own truth, safety, and sovereignty.

Season 2, Episode 3

There is an old story about the rabbit. Running through the field, gripped by terror, it cries out, “don't eat me, eagle, don't eat me” until finally the shadow of wings darkens the grass and the eagle swoops down and does exactly that. It was rabbit who called it in its exact demise. Not because it wanted to be consumed, but because fear is a frequency, and frequency is a broadcast, and the universe answers what you're transmitting.

In this episode, I’m sitting with that story and what it reveals about the power we have as humans to co-create our own reality. When we broadcast scarcity, lack, not-enoughness out loud, in our bodies, in the low hum beneath our thoughts, we are not protecting ourselves from those things. We are calling them to us. We become the rabbit. We magnetize exactly what we most dread.

The invitation here isn't toxic positivity or spiritual bypassing. It's something ancient, a way the mind begs us to forget: embodiment. You cannot simply think your way into a new frequency. I’ve tried, and I’ve got a hunch you probably have too. The thing you want most? You have to become it. In your nervous system, your breath, your willingness to let the thing you want actually land. This episode is about waking up to the harmful frequencies I’ve been broadcasting, the eagles I've been summoning, & learning to choose, sovereignly, to no longer beat the drum of the things I do not want .

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⚠️ Disclaimer

This podcast is for educational and harm-reduction purposes only. I am not encouraging or advocating the use of any illegal substances. No substances were consumed during the making of this episode. Altered states--whether achieved through breathwork, drumming, or plant medicines--can impact perception and decision making. Exploring these realms without proper guidance, preparation, and integration support can be dangerous. Please journey responsibly and in alignment with your own truth, safety, and sovereignty.

RESOURCES

Vipassana Meditationdhamma.org

KCSARC — King County Sexual Assault Resource Center

kcsarc.org

The Body Keeps the Score — Bessel van der Kolk

Free with Libby app (library card) · libbyapp.com

The Biology of Belief — Bruce Lipton

Free with Libby app (library card) · libbyapp.com

Bookshop.org

Sex, Drugs, & Sound Bowls | Season 2, Episode 2

*TRIGGER
WARNING*

This is an episode all about unpacking sexual trauma. No gruesome details, but storied expression and feels. It journeys through the shadowlands and lands in the valley of GRACE and gratitude <3 If you're here with me, I'm so sorry it's been hard, and I'm so happy we found each other <3

Shiiiiiiiit I keep almost deleting it. We’ll see if/how long I can handle it here. It feels naked and messy and awkward. But I think that's because healing IS a little naked and awkward and messy. Whatever it is, it for sure isn’t linear. I've come to know it as the spiral dance of life. Each time we come back around to the sticky spots, we are invited to navigate with more and more compassion, awareness, wisdom, and grace.

It's been a while since I felt the residual energy of past trauma in my body, yet here it is, showing up in strange places once again. Instead of holding it in this time, I'm sharing it. And instead of feeling defeated, I feel excited. Because I know how much I've grown through. How much I've brought into the light. I know the power I have to alchemize and get a little freer with each dissolved layer of trauma in these cells. I know that these sticky spots rearing their heads are the guardians and secret keepers of my body and always have something valuable to show me about myself.

In this episode I share different stories as gateways to my own awakening. I honor the power of forgetting, and the power of remembering. The power of allowing myself to be messy, and also of taking ownership and responsibility for my part in the dance.

The inability to push or rush or mentally force my own healing has been one of the most difficult things to navigate on my journey and also one of the most radically freeing.

Taking back my power has meant so many things in this life: Recognizing my own role in playing out old patterns and paradigms. Normalizing trauma amnesia aka forgetting until it is safe enough to remember, weird kinks aka exploring kinks as literal energetic kinks in the hose of my energetic body, and rewriting/rewiring the story of love into something SAFE.

Even as I finished this episode I felt myself flooded with so much hope, gratitude, love, and healing. Bless that those same waves wash over you dear one! Bless that you remember that no matter how ugly or deep or bloody your wounds are, they are never too much. You are never too much. There is always hope. You are worthy of healing, and honey, you do not have to go it alone.

Connect with me! In the comments, socials or by email: sexdrugsandsoundbowls@gmail.com

✨Find me

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@JessieSiren (TikTok)

@SirenSkoolie (IG/TikTok)

⚠️ Disclaimer This podcast is for educational and harm-reduction purposes only. I am not encouraging or advocating the use of any illegal substances. No substances were consumed during the making of this episode. Altered states--whether achieved through breathwork, drumming, or plant medicines--can impact perception and decision-making. Exploring these realms without proper guidance, preparation, and integration support can be dangerous. Please journey responsibly and in alignment with your own truth, safety, and sovereignty.

RESOURCES MENTIONED

Vipassana Meditationdhamma.org

KCSARC — King County Sexual Assault Resource Center

kcsarc.org

The Body Keeps the Score — Bessel van der Kolk

Free with Libby app (library card) · libbyapp.com

The Biology of Belief — Bruce Lipton

Free with Libby app (library card) · libbyapp.com