Binding The Column

Compromising integrity

Fixated on a feeling

Unable to let go

Searching for healing

The hollow

That follows

The echo

Etched in time

From persevering the chains that bind

Wrapped around

Suffocating

Relocating the mind

To a better place in time

Stay in the present

While pressing forward

Rewarded by the investment

Venting all the questions

Continuing the quest

Stumbling over all the yets

Keeping in mind, as to not forget

Forging ahead

The mind made new

Dumping out the stew

Among the few

Brewing the bastard

Stirring the bad brain

As the rain rings

Drying the rags

Gagging on the rope

Causing to choke

Tying the knot

On this love affair, that's been lost

Losing life, from the fading light

Unable to see

The darkness dampening

Saturating the stance

Hypnotized by lies

Leading to longevity

In a boat, with no hope

Stuck out at sea

How can I conquer this, to believe?

The lie caught in the middle

Fixated on this riddle

Good riddance to the strife

Dancing off stage to and enhanced life

Shifting perspective

Better equipped as a detective

Detecting deviance

Destroying deception

Pulling in the reception

Proceeding from the recession

Taking up a collection

Contributing to the course

The horse pulling the plow

Tilling the land

Preparing the dirt

Investing to enrich

Rectifying the soil

Sowing seeds

Bleed to believe

Rooting on the plants

To advance

Adversaries intersecting

Sectioning off

To scare away

Carry the cross this way

Yielding to the field

Feeling the fever

Ever exemplified

Amplfying the action

Acting on the wrong

Writing the song

The example of His son

Saluting onward

Warding off weakness

And cleansed of the secrets

To Dust

DNA intertwined

Ascending down the line

Traits tailored within

Shown as a familiar grin

Shining on through time

Dealt for opportunity to deal

Through the past there's opportunity to heal

Living real

In reality

Out of the fallacy

Tripping over the fault lines

Drawn by the hand

Needed to be reprimanded

Self-will demanded

Suffering just as I planned it

Oh, so blind

Unable to see behind

The hindrance hiding

For the back of my head

With the plan for me to wind up dead

Ding Dong!

Who's there?

It's me

Destructive in behavior

Having to be in control

Scatter brained let's roll

Ruthless retaliation

Retailing to retain

Aiming to embark on the game

Don't do it alone

We're good, there's me, myself, & I

Good grief, what belief

As the last leaf falls

So will the hope

Enveloped in ecstasy

All I can hear is me

Meandering

Misunderstanding

Unable to stand

My own plan

I know where it lands

Everything the same

Going insane

Plain and simple

Keep it simple, stupid

It's been eluded

No more confusion

Fuse the vision

Repairing the incision

Wounds to be healed

Learning to peel back

The layers stacked on top

Causing me to drop the juggling act

Attacking the process

Proceeding by conceding

Acknowledging Agitations

Arising tides

Overwhelming the mind

Taking a look from elsewhere

To understand the despair

Beginning to repair

Through becoming aware

From the ways the enemy attempts to scare

Prepare

Suit up & show up

Pressure repressed

Ignoring irritation

Irrational instincts

Intersecting agony

Gone again, against the wind

Winding up, wilting away

Weathered, dead, & gray

Dealing with doses

Hopeless heartache

So weak it's ready to break

All the mistakes

Again, to bad decisions

Finding comfort to live in

In voluntary man slaughter

Voluntarily killing the man within

Choking on the choice

Distorting my voice

Violating the volatile

Pictured perspectives

Respecting their reasons

While falling to pieces

Disappearing to dust

Hush all of this lust

The luxury longed for

Forking over to shut up

With the middle finger stuck up

The conversation struck up

Resounding tones to suck up

Striking the chord

I can't take this anymore

The little things people do

It's like taking a look inside, of who I am

All that I can't stand

Holding out on the brand

Unaware of the lending hand

& how it helps to find myself

The self suffering under sand

Unable to understand

Until I learn to withstand

Discovering the plan

Proceeding through pain

Taking notice of the gain

Being cleansed by the rain

The dark past

Becoming the most valued possession

The obsession

With all the lessons

Session after session

Answering all the questions

Caught up in comatose

Let go

Going forward

Warding off the weakness

To seek Him

Woe is me

Why can't I let myself be?

Berating the behavior

Descending to the dungeon

Instead of learning to function

The conjunction of the junkie

Unable to see the key

That's right in front of me

Menacing morbidity

Incarceration to infinity

The problematic perspective

From the dumb detective

Duh! The deviance devised

Stems from the devil that hides

Conspiring to spread wide the lies

To multiply & occupy the mind

Investing in the middle

Infected with the riddle

Drowned out by the fiddle

Hey diddle diddle

Did the cat eat the canary

Contrary contracting

Reacting ravenously

Studying the test subject

Subjective injections

Substantially stunting

An aerial view

An observation on operations

Preparing to operate

To revise the rate

Of what to anticipate

Antagonizing anatomy

Asphyxiation of the atom

Wondering the response

Who would've thought?

Near death experiences

Time & time again

Locked in the cage

No wonder the rage

Lacking maturity in the age

Agenda altering attitude

Erecting an altar

Which will obviously falter

Alter the angle

Recognize the angel

To gel in application

Look at this!

What have we here?!

What has become of this creature?

These faulty features, festering

Feasting

Translation of the test

Will this carry any weight?

Or

Just fold under the heavy fate?

The cycle that circles round

The memory malfunctioning

In a short time

With the hands ticking away

These thoughts fade away

Forgetting the past

Being condemned to repeat this conquest yet again

Like Groundhogs' Day

Will this ride ever end?

Or

Will I cycle to the bitter end?

Must I live vicariously through myself?

What parts need replaced, so I'm able to present the right face?

Trace the trail, so I stop chasing my tail

Let me learn, to recoil from the flame that burns

Turn away!

Awakening, taking notice of the light

Illuminating the life

To strategize and fight

Taking Flight

Welcome Home

Lost soul

Come to become whole

Molding your role

Wearing the sole

Fulfilling the soul

Shed the weight and surrender

To a way of living better

To make way for the new

The brighter visions in view

What will you choose?

What are you willing to lose?

Descending to worse

Or

Deciding to put in the work?

Of course,

"Things could be worse"

"I'll be fine"

Starting to deny

Declining, to get high

Losing sight, in the eye

Why

?

Who knows

As the symptoms show

Unwillingness to grow

Bestow

The glow

Setting the ducks in a row

To ascending from low

Paying what we owe

Discovering better

No need to render

Playing the pretender

Estimating the weather

While holding everything together

Let it all go

To bestow

Learning which way to go

From The One who knows

Venturing on the voyage

Bleeding out the baggage

Clearing up the static

While quitting this habit

I've had it!

No more!

Take a step back

To reset, regroup, & respond

Wanting to attack

Avenging all the attacks

That linger and last

Well past, their welcome

The passage to the well

Passing through hell

Starting to realize and dwell

On ourselves

The mending melting

The miserable mind

Intertwining

Dividing the lying

Sin subsiding

To undermining the underlining issues

Roots rotting

The faulty foundation

Scattered from where our aim is

Is the flame lit?

Where are you stationed?

What's the underlying notion?

Gain your focus

Fix the broken, lens

Stop the pretend

And the pretense

Starting a new sequence, of events

From the descent, to become decent

In the mix

Contributing member

From the weather in December

Remember it gets better

Keep coming back

To attract the act

Of learning how to laugh

And relax on the comeback

Ready to act

In the fashion that your Father's after

The Invitation

The Invitation

The Initiation

The home invasion

I can't explain it

Tangible Torture

Unable to see the order

What is this for?

Am I needing more?

In time I shall explore

Experiences extracted

Mistakes manifested

Festering feelings

Feeding forgiveness

Given a nest

For times of rest

As God invests

With every test

Learning to reset

All that is to resent

Meant to take us out

Lingering in a life full of doubt

As if there's no way out

All this surmounts

Against certainty

Supplying the mountain

Tainting the taste

Becoming bitter

But how is this able to become better?

Seeing the silver lining on the fetter

Forged from what festered

Foreseeing from hindsight

Binding the light

And sifting the strife

Tightly bound

Ready to be unwound

Wearing the wound

Accepting the aggravation

But bouncing back to bravery

Boldly bereaving

Displaying dysfunction

Disengaging to function

In the fun action

Acting on instinct

Believing on the brink

Saved by the shrink

No more shall I drink

Or else, impending doom leading towards becoming extinct

Come in

Believe in yourself

It's worth reaching out for help

Awakened to the account of our worth

Seeking to discover purpose on earth

Uncovering the sight

A sigh of relief

Building up belief

Longing to look on as change occurs in every leaf

Not to compare

But become aware

Stuck staring

Procrastination preparing

Purpose pairing

Purging the problem

The pro at blaming

Attaining awakening

Entertaining the entrance

Entering training

The train ringing

In the ear it's singing

What are you bringing, to the table?

This no fable

You are able

To become stable

Bailing the bondage

Shipping back the suffering

Seeking out the solution

Saluting signifying the send off

Pouring Out The Heart

Basting the book in blood

Flooding the pages

The feelings I haven't seen in ages

Through time

What feels like many lives

Dying to live again

Standing with these dirty hands

Handling the experience

Handing over my heart

The art of empathy

Taking the path so empty

Temporarily taking note

Focusing to float

One perspective to the next

Writing out the text

Learning the character to collect

Electing to elevate

Instead of continuing to escape

Scraping the skin

In search of what's deeper within

It's painful digging deep

But somewhere I'll find relief

Discovering relation while out at sea

Following the current to common company

Breaking ground

On land that is found

Fostering the favorable fellowship