Support my art on Patreon - a little goes a long way.
Buy the book on Amazon (affiliate link).
Buy the book on Kobo (affiliate link).
This piece traces two moments in time shaped by fear, decision‑making, and the limits of control: the early days of a breast cancer diagnosis and, years later, the terror of a possible recurrence. In June, Becky grapples with cognitive fog, overwhelming choices, and the strange dissonance between who she thought she’d be in a crisis and who she actually is. Faced with two separate cancers, uncertain test results, and competing treatment paths, she finds relief not in certainty but in making a few clear, logical decisions—especially the choice of a double mastectomy without reconstruction. Statistics, once comforting, lose their meaning when the diagnosis is personal and immediate. Years later, that fragile equilibrium is shaken again by a biopsy and a familiar, unbearable wait. The mantra that once offered calm—in the absence of a diagnosis, I am healthy—is repeated not as reassurance, but as survival.

Support my Podcasts using Patreon. Your $3 per month helps the podcast stay live, supports me as an Artist, and helps me access other funding.

To support the show, please support me on Patreon - https://www.patreon.com/7836092/join