This month I come face to face with full nervous system collapse: my first smattering of grays, exhaustion, zero sex drive, endless wallowing and finally hitting rock bottom.

A deep heart to heart with Universe where I cry out for help and receive a clear answer: there isn't the way or the truth, there is only ever your way and your truth. When I get lost in my mind and look outside for answers, it's a lot of disappointment. When I connect deeply to what I call my IGS, or my Inner Guidance System, I am never let down.

I share the power of keeping a dream log & heeding the dreamworld's call to follow the breadcrumbs. The breadcrumbs lead me to a yoga mat on the bank of the river, to the art of doing nothing, and back to the still, quiet voice of my inner knowing. I share how Universe schools me in the unraveling of old fear patterns and learning the art of discernment: aka what is excitement aka fear of the unknown, and what is warning-fear, I am shown the eternal procreant urge, and how if I can’t find peace here and now, ultimately there is no other side, and if I am waiting for it, I will always be waiting. I am shown that everything I’ve ever wanted is here, and now and in the stillness and quiet the magnitude of this deep medicine changes everything for me.

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⚠️ Disclaimer

This podcast is for educational and harm-reduction purposes only. I am not encouraging or advocating the use of any illegal substances. No substances were consumed during the making of this episode. Altered states--whether achieved through breathwork, drumming, or plant medicines--can impact perception and decision making. Exploring these realms without proper guidance, preparation, and integration support can be dangerous. Please journey responsibly and in alignment with your own truth, safety, and sovereignty.