Daniel Andersson used to run an experiment on himself. He would open the first beer of the afternoon, count to fifteen, and the anxiety would be gone. "Like magic," he says. "I couldn't feel any anxiety whatsoever."

That is why it took him so long to stop. It worked.

His last drink was the final day of November 2018. He was living in Tokyo — a manager, a father of two, a man everyone thought was doing well. His daughter had started asking why he smelled strange. Nobody ever said, "Daniel, you have a problem."

In this conversation he tells the whole story: a Swedish village where every boy played football and every Friday was about drinking. A father he adored and could never resemble. One free year in Florence at 21, and the emails from that year his mother showed him decades later, in which he barely recognised how happy he had been.

Then 2019 — twenty-five kilos gone, two years of near-solitude, and one desperate afternoon when he locked the bathroom door, prayed a prayer he had not said since childhood, and felt a hand on the back of his neck.

He talks about the woman who gave him back his sense of being a man, at forty, after years without so much as a hug. About his daughter asking at dinner to move to Sweden. About meeting Hannah at a comedy club and being asked, on their first date, how he receives love — and having no answer.

And about what sat underneath all of it: he was afraid of men. Today fifty of them meet him every Sunday in Malmö at Lighthouse, the community he founded. Nothing leaves the room. Nobody gives advice.

WHERE TO FIND DANIEL
Website — danielbertandersson.com
Instagram — instagram.com/dbavibrationer
TikTok — tiktok.com/@daniel.bert.ander
LinkedIn — linkedin.com/in/danielbertandersson


CHAPTERS
00:00 The experiment
00:14 Welcome to the show
00:40 The question before the story
01:27 The last drink, November 2018
03:06 What alcohol actually did
04:25 A village where Friday was liberation
07:20 Florence at 21
08:36 Wanting his father's approval
10:10 What his father never said
12:59 Tokyo: career, title, identity
15:39 The more he did, the less happy
18:00 Waiting for five o'clock
19:01 Nobody said the word
20:35 Why he walked onto a comedy stage
22:03 Sobriety as a promise on stage
24:03 Twenty-five kilos, and two years alone
24:51 The woman who gave him his value back
25:27 "I want to go to Sweden"
28:54 The prayer, and the hand on his neck
36:15 Meeting Hannah
38:34 "How do you receive love?"
39:17 The fear of men
41:50 Emergence Brotherhood
43:20 Money, title, and what he chose instead
44:51 More of a man, or less?
45:16 The retreat that took the fear away
47:29 Lighthouse: fifty men in Malmö
52:14 The rules of the room
54:39 What he still doesn't talk about
57:23 A Kundalini awakening in Spain
1:02:30 Plant medicine, supervised
1:08:11 A message to the next generation
1:13:00 Where to find Daniel
1:13:29 The book: Love Longer
1:14:58 For whoever finds this in a hard hour

Watch the full conversation on YouTube: https://youtu.be/xAVwYXMqrns

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