My friend, Hayley Mulenda & I sit down to unpack what God’s been teaching both of us-- discomfort is a discipline, and avoiding it might be the very thing holding us back from intimacy with him.

Today, we live in a world where everything is designed for speed and convenience. Amazon delivers in hours, food shows up at our door, and even spirituality seems available at the click of a button, but when it comes to following Jesus there are no shortcuts.

In this episode, Hayley shares how a health scare forced her into a season of total dependence on God, and I talk about how the Lord is looking for even more intimacy with us in this time, and what it’s like to feel stretched by the weight of the calling. If you feel like God is requiring an increase in intimacy and dependence on Him, this one's for you!

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The past several weeks have been a lot! Multiple car accidents (yes, including a deer collision), parenting chaos and disappointments that hit me hard. I found myself frustrated, exhausted, and honestly asking God: “Why is this happening?”

But in the middle of the mess, the Lord impressed something powerful on my heart:

“I’m not trying to destroy you. I’m trying to weaken you.”

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In this episode, I sit down with Brenna Blain for one of the most honest conversations I’ve had on the podcast. We talk about what it really looks like to follow Jesus while still battling mental illness, trauma, and temptation. Brenna shares her powerful story from growing up in church as a pastor’s kid, abuse, same-sex attraction, and deep seasons of depression.

We talk about what it means to suffer well, how motherhood can actually disciple us, and why God’s goodness doesn’t always look like the comfort we expected - yet we hold fast to the promise that God heals always, even if it’s not on this side of eternity. If you’ve ever asked, “Can I still love Jesus and feel this broken?” this episode is for you.

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In this continuation of last week’s episode, my mom, Ms. Yvette and I move past trials we’ve faced together and into the transformation we’ve witnessed. We talk about cultivating a lifestyle of prayer, learning to listen for God’s voice, and how true healing happens when we yield to His presence.

Tune in to hear how the Lord has taught us both to walk in humility, steward our relationship differently, and grow together in grace.

Whether you're longing for guidance in your walk with God, or simply a reminder that change is possible through Him, I pray this episode draws you closer to the heart of the Father.

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In this deeply personal and long-awaited Mother’s Day episode of In Totality, I sit down with one of the most important people in my life - my mom.

This conversation is raw, honest, and full of the kind of love only a mother and daughter can share. We open up about our journey together - how my mom came to know Jesus, how our relationship has evolved over the years, and the very real struggles we’ve faced as a family. I share openly about my battles with mental health, and my mom shares how she leaned on the Lord’s strength and wisdom to walk with me through some of the darkest moments of my life.

This is a story of faith, perseverance, and the kind of love that covers even the hardest seasons. Whether you’re a mother, daughter, or someone in the middle of your own healing journey, I pray this conversation brings you hope and reminds you that God truly meets us in every valley.

Content Warning: This episode contains sensitive discussion around suicide and self-harm. Listener discretion is advised.

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In this week’s episode of In Totality, I’m back with my dear friends, CD and Melody Fabien, for Part II of our powerful conversation on purity, obedience, and trusting God in the waiting. If Part I stirred something in your spirit, this next part goes even deeper.

We’re talking about what it really looks like to walk out a set-apart relationship—one that honors God even when it’s countercultural. From setting boundaries to choosing obedience over ease, this couple shares how their faith shaped their love story beyond just waiting for marriage.

I pray this episode encourages you to lean into God’s process, even when it feels slow or misunderstood. He’s not just preparing the promise—He’s preparing you for the promise.

If you’re in a season of waiting, dating with intention, or learning how to surrender your timeline to God, this one’s for you.

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When God writes your love story, it looks different from the world’s version — and it’s worth the wait.

In today’s episode of In Totality, I sit down with two of my dear friends, a married couple whose very first kiss was at the altar on their wedding day. We talk about their individual journeys of salvation, the seasons of preparation God led them through, and the faith it took to trust Him every step of the way.

Their story is powerful, but it’s important to remember: while this may not be exactly what God is specifically calling you to do in your waiting season, He is calling all of us to live lives of obedience, faith, and consecration.

We dive deep into what it means to honor God not just in dating, but in every part of our walk with Christ. If you’ve ever wondered if it’s still possible to live set apart in relationships today, this conversation will remind you: it is, and it’s beautiful.

Whether you’re single, dating, or already married, I pray this episode encourages you to trust God's timing, obey His leading, and believe that His plans for you are better than anything you could write on your own.

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When my son was diagnosed with autism at age two—and later with Fragile X syndrome—I entered a kind of grief I wasn’t prepared for. It wasn’t loud or dramatic. It was quiet, slow, and deeply sacred. It was the grief of letting go of the life I imagined and learning to embrace the one God was writing.

In this deeply personal episode, I open up about the pain, surrender, and beauty that come with raising a child with special needs while clinging to faith in Jesus. I talk about the silent ache of broken expectations, the sacredness of honest lament, and the unexpected closeness of God in the middle of it all.

Grief doesn’t always come from death—it often comes from the loss of an idea, a dream, or a version of life we thought we’d have. But even there, God is present. Even in our most unspoken sorrows, He is faithful. And even when healing doesn’t look the way we hoped, He still gets the glory.

If you’ve ever carried a grief you didn’t choose, or wrestled with faith in the face of life’s hardest questions, this episode is for you. May it remind you that you’re not alone—and that hope still lives here, too.

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