Content note: this episode discusses the loss of a partner to suicide.

Jennifer France never set out to write a book. In the year after her partner Ann Marie died by suicide in 2019, Jenn was isolated, shut out by Ann Marie’s friends, and unable to lean on her family. So she started writing to Ann Marie every day. Those journals became Faith, Hope and Love, a record of her first year of grief told through journal entries, photographs, and transcripts of readings with three psychic mediums.

Jenn tells Sarah and Jane about the signs that started arriving within days of Ann Marie’s death. A small purse she’d been told to leave behind turned up hanging in a shop window hours later. A vivid dream visit brought an odd phrase that her hairdresser repeated word for word the next day. Through all of it, Jenn began to notice a pattern: whatever she wrote in her journal seemed to get an answer within a day or two.

They also talk about Jenn going to her first medium as a guarded skeptic and leaving a believer. She describes how three very different mediums delivered the same information in their own styles, and how music became one of Ann Marie’s favorite ways to say she was still there. Jenn explains why she was never angry with Ann Marie. Eight years on, she feels like herself again, only bigger. And yes, Ann Marie may have had a hand in bringing Jenn her new partner, Shannon.

It’s a tender, honest conversation about surviving the unsurvivable and the love that keeps going.

Key takeaways

• Writing directly to a loved one in spirit can become a two-way conversation. Many people find that answers show up in the days after they put a question on paper.
• Dream visits often feel different from ordinary dreams: vivid, linear, and remembered in full detail. Writing them down right away lets you recognize confirmations when they arrive.
• Going to a reading as a skeptic is fine. Holding back reactions and letting the medium bring specific details only you and your loved one would know can make the experience more meaningful.
• Different mediums can bring through the same message in very different styles. Each reader’s personality shapes how spirit comes through.
• Grief doesn’t follow a straight line. Healing often comes in small steps forward and back, and tears can return years later.
• Choosing compassion over anger after a suicide loss is a personal path, not a requirement. For some people it opens the door to peace and continued connection.
• There is no single right way to grieve. The support that helps one person may not fit another, and finding what fits is part of the process.

Quotes

• “I really do believe that journaling opens up some type of door.” (Jenn)
• “I went in as a skeptic. But I came out a believer, a total believer.” (Jenn)
• “The other realm is not that far away.” (Jenn)
• “Grief has kind of a big faucet. It really doesn’t ever turn off.” (Jane)
• “We come here to grow and expand our consciousness.” (Jenn)
• “It’s a whole body feeling. You just know it.” (Jenn)

Links and resources

• Faith, Hope and Love by Jennifer France
• Jennifer France https://jennfrancewrites.com/
• Life With Ghosts documentary
• Induced After-Death Communication (IADC)
• Life After Suicide: Finding Courage, Comfort and Community After Unthinkable Loss by Dr. Jennifer Ashton
• If you or someone you love is struggling, call or text 988 to reach the 988 Suicide & Crisis Lifeline (US)

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