In this episode of Feel Safe in Your Body, Victor Goenka sits down with Kriti Ghosh, an artist who is autistic and ADHD, and who was misdiagnosed with borderline personality disorder more than once. She talks about what it costs to have your wiring named wrong, and what it took to find her own language instead. For her, that language is art.

Kriti names something Victor sees often: expression as nervous system regulation, and what happens to a body when its voice gets suppressed long enough. Outcast early, bullied for years, and masking everywhere she went, she learned to perform a self that other people could accept. The cost showed up in the body. Her throat closed. She could not sing for five years.

The conversation follows one arc: where she started, what wired her, what turned it, and what safety feels like now. The turn began about four years ago, when she started listening to her inner child and coming back to practice, slowly. Vocal riyaz, meditation, yoga, dance, and painting whatever was in her head. She has synesthesia, so color carries emotion for her, and she learned to use it. As she puts it, the opposite of depression is expression.

She also describes the moment she left her country, framed not as escape but as choice: try for the last time, with nothing to lose. Now, more than two years on, she is building toward becoming an art therapist, helping other people use creation as their own way back to themselves.

The signature question of the show arrives where it always does: how do you know, in your body, that you are safe right now? Kriti's answer is precise and physical. She is safe when her voice is not suppressed and her tone is her own, when her breath moves freely, when her body is unmasked and unclenched and she can laugh without bracing.

IN THIS EPISODE

What it costs to have your wiring named wrong, and to be diagnosed with the wrong label more than once. Masking and autistic burnout, and why expressive does not mean fine. How suppression lived in her body, including five years without her singing voice. Art and synesthesia as regulation, not decoration. Why she left her country, framed as choice rather than escape. A practical close anyone can use tonight: you do not need to be an artist, you need to become an expressive person.

ABOUT KRITI GHOSH

Kriti Ghosh is a multidisciplinary artist who works across theatre, music, painting, dance, and writing, and is training to become an art therapist. Autistic and ADHD, she uses creation as her language and her regulation, and wants other people to feel free to express themselves without fear.

Find Kriti on Instagram: @khwab_e_kriti

FROM VICTOR

If your mind is loud and your body never quite settles, that is the work I do inside BreathX Collective and one to one with a few people at a time.

BreathX Collective: https://nas.com/breathxio

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