What goes up and down more than a yo-yo? My feelings towards my high school boyfriend!!! Things are getting even MORE unhinged over here.

It's 2007 and I've just gotten accepted into college. I've taken a year off to save for college and am working two jobs. The only thing standing in the way of my ambition is the fact that I am getting blackout drunk almost every single night. Oh, and then there's the super nice guy I'm dating but can't wait to get away from. <3

"I hate him thinking that I hate him," is a line I repeat again and again and also can't seem to stop. Also, "I was having a really good time until my boyfriend showed up," is a common theme.

This episode shows my state of mind and how rocky things are following my parents' separation. The on-again/off-again relationship with Corey is so hard on on us both and I feel like I have no one to talk to about it.

Although nothing catastrophic happens in this episode, I can hear what a hard time I am having, and it hurts my heart.

I end this episode with the very early seedlings of forgiveness work (Ugh.) and also a HUGE cliffhanger. WHAT HAPPENED WITH DAVE?!?! SORRY!

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