In this unfiltered entry, Tyler records from Turkey in the aftermath of a sleepless night marked by deep energetic movement, cramping, breathwork, and the possible dissolution of a longtime inner voice—the "eager ego" that always tried to help. He recounts a powerful Kundalini experience that challenged his trust, tested his discernment, and demanded he surrender control. Through all of it, he’s learning to distinguish what’s truly his voice versus what’s a borrowed download or pre-processed thought. This is a reflection on humility, identity, intuition, and the terrifying beauty of letting go.

In this powerful integration episode, I recount a recent psychedelic ceremony where I felt myself plugged into an infinite source of energy. What began with resistance gave way to surrender, revealing deeply embedded energies within—archetypes like the lion, the monkey, the spider, and a young ancient bear. As these inner guardians softened, something opened. Energy surged through me, awakening my heart, third eye, and a mysterious conduit in my back. This episode captures the intimate unraveling of that experience, the beauty and confusion it brought, and the sense that something sacred is now alive within me—and perhaps within you too.