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What happens when the pain we carry feels too buried, too dark, or too shameful to bring into the light? Catherine's powerful story of abortion, shame, and ultimate healing reminds us that redemption thrives in vulnerability.

Catherine never planned to share her abortion story publicly. For years after her procedure in 1981, she buried the memory, numbing her pain through what she calls "reckless living" until hitting rock bottom at age 28. Even after finding faith, she faced what countless post-abortive women experience: the inability to forgive herself despite believing in divine forgiveness. "It's just so unnatural for a woman to end the life of her child," she reflects, explaining the deep psychological wound that persisted for decades.

The turning point came unexpectedly. After confiding in sisters and close friends, Catherine felt called to share her story publicly during a church event in 2009—despite overwhelming fear of judgment. What followed was transformation, not just for her but for many who heard her story and recognized their own pain. A profound shift occurred when someone told her, "You are a mother and you will see your baby in heaven." This perspective allowed Catherine to honor her unborn child and reshape her identity. Now when asked if she has children, she responds with courageous honesty: "I don't have earthly children, but I have a baby in heaven."

Catherine's message resonates beyond abortion. Whether you're carrying shame from past choices, abuse, addiction, or any painful secret, healing begins when we stop hiding. "You can't heal what you don't face," as host Tonya reminds us. If Catherine's story touched something in you, reach out. She's offered to connect with listeners who need support in their healing journey. Download our free 5-day healing workbook at tonyashellnutt.com and take your first step toward freedom today.

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Have you ever found yourself stuck in that excruciating space between obedience and outcome, wondering if God has forgotten you? That painful waiting room is exactly what we're tackling in this soul-nourishing episode.

The harvest is indeed coming, but growth requires patience. Drawing from personal experience, I share my family's challenging two-year period after relocating from Montana to South Carolina—a season filled with divine silence that had me questioning everything. What felt like abandonment was actually God's intimate invitation to deeper trust. This waiting period, though painful, ultimately positioned my husband to own his company and led me to my current fulfilling role.

Gardening offers us the perfect metaphor for spiritual growth. Just as plants develop strong roots underground before producing visible fruit, our souls undergo significant strengthening during quiet seasons. Your foundations are being reinforced, harmful habits are shifting, and old wounds are receiving divine attention—all beneath the surface. The enemy's favorite tactic is convincing you nothing's happening when everything is happening.

Remember that God isn't slow; He's thorough. Faith isn't passive waiting; it's active preparation. Clean out areas of your life—whether toxic relationships, harmful habits, or physical clutter—to make room for what you've been praying for. Like Penny Chenery of Secretariat fame, whose persistence created a legacy affecting every Kentucky Derby horse this year, your faithfulness today creates ripples far beyond what you can currently see.

Ready to prepare the soil of your heart? Visit tonyashellnutt.com for our free five-day healing challenge workbook. The harvest doesn't come to the fastest—it comes to the faithful. What will you do today to show God you're ready for what He has prepared?

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The garden of your life needs regular weeding - a truth that resonates deeply whether you're nurturing actual plants or cultivating personal growth. Drawing from my childhood experiences of weeding as punishment, I share powerful insights about identifying and removing the things that steal energy from what matters most.

What's draining your potential right now? Perhaps it's bitterness disguised as boundaries, shame whispering you'll never change, addictive behaviors masquerading as stress relief, or relationships that feel comfortable but keep you stuck. These emotional and spiritual weeds don't ask permission - they simply take up space, and if left unchecked, they'll choke out everything you're trying so hard to grow.

The painful truth is that sometimes what helped us survive becomes what prevents us from thriving. Those coping mechanisms and familiar patterns might feel safe, but they're cluttering your soil. This episode offers practical guidance for recognizing these patterns and finding the courage to uproot what doesn't belong in your new season. Through scripture, personal stories, and actionable steps, we explore how eliminating a weed isn't a loss - it's a gift to what you want to grow. Take the challenge: identify what's stealing your peace each morning and commit to clearing space for what truly matters. Download the free five-day healing workbook from my website to help you through this process of spiritual gardening. Ready to make room for what's holy in your life?

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