In this episode, we have one of our most vulnerable conversations yet about our personal journeys with mental health—and how differently we understand our childhoods now that we're adults.

Janai gets candid about a period of her life that we haven't discussed in this much detail before: her experience inside a psychiatric facility. She shares the circumstances that led to her being admitted, why she felt like her mom had essentially "tricked" her into admitting herself, and what that experience looked and felt like from her perspective at the time.

Kelsi opens up about realizing she was depressed from a very young age and what it's like to look back at childhood and struggle to find many genuinely happy memories.

She reflects on her relationship with her mom, the environment she grew up in, and the difficult realization that when she thinks about that period of her life, there simply aren't many moments she remembers feeling truly happy.

We talk about what it's like to experience emotions as a child that you don't yet have the language, autonomy, or perspective to understand—and then revisit those same experiences years later as an adult.

Because sometimes growing up doesn't change what happened.

It just finally gives you the words for it.

This isn't a conversation about having perfectly healed from our pasts or having all of the answers. It's an honest look at where we've been, what we've carried with us, and how our understanding of our own mental health continues to evolve as we get older.

If you've ever looked back at your childhood through adult eyes and realized there were things happening within you that you simply couldn't name at the time, this conversation is for you.

Enjoy!

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