The last time she was on the podcast, Arana told me about a fantasy she wanted to become a reality. Her partner had offered to help organize it. I told her: when this happens, you have to come back and tell us.

It happened.

In September, six lovers spent eight sultry hours with her in her own home. Her metamours — the lovers of her lovers — even got together separately and made her a cake. The banner read: "Happy First Gang Bang."

In this conversation, we go into:

• How the night actually got planned (and why she didn't plan it)
• What "cherished, not used" actually feels like
• The brain goblins that showed up afterward — and how she met them
• Why safety, in her words, is an inside job
• The unexpected male bonding that came out of it
• Practical wisdom she wishes someone had given her (yes, including the blankets)

Arana is a relationship anarchist, solo polyamorous, a mother, and a professional who runs two businesses and is writing a book. She's also someone who's stopped apologizing for being "a lot".

This is part two of her story. I already have a feeling there's a part three coming.

Previous episode: https://podcast.morganhalebooks.com/2471543/episodes/17725531

Content note: This episode is a candid conversation about adult sexuality, polyamory, and group sex. Listener discretion advised.