午前2時、また目が覚める。

何年か前、床に倒れたあの日から、もう二度と自分を失わないと誓った。

家族のために、会社のために、心を押し殺して我慢する日々。

でも、100人のうち99人分を差し出しても、会社はもうその99人を覚えていない。

そんな私を変えたのは、フィリピン・ルソン島タルラックで見た光景でした。

誰も間違いを笑わず、誰も目をそらさず、みんなが自分らしく大声で歌っていた。

その不格好で正直な勇気が、あの日私を変えました。

サンフランシスコ、北京、ホノルル、台北——旅した街のどれもが、日本の家にいては見えなかった何かを教えてくれました。

そして気づいたのは、日本を出て初めて、日本の価値を強く抱きしめられたということ。

これは商品じゃない。嘘でもない。

ただ、仮面を脱ぐ練習をするあなたの隣に立っていたい。

その一心で作った曲です。

【歌詞】

[Verse 1]

午前2時 また目が覚める

仕方なくじゃない 自分で選んだ始まり

何年か前 床に倒れたこの体

もう二度と自分を失わないと誓った

[Verse 2]

誰かの夢を築くために働く手

家族のために 会社のために 心を押し殺して我慢する

100人のうち99人は全部差し出しても

今はもう会社は99人を覚えていない

[Pre-Chorus]

体調を崩すこともある

薄っぺらい会社の評価を失うことだってある

でも自分自身を失ったなら

その痛みに意味はあるのだろうか

[Chorus]

私はあなたに商品を売っているんじゃない

嘘を売っているんじゃない

ただあなたのそばに立っていたい

仮面を脱ぐ練習をするあなたの隣に

被っていた仮面にさよならを

内なる声にこんにちはを

これは売り物じゃない あなたらしさへの挑戦なんだ

[Verse 3]

フィリピンのルソン島タルラックの太陽 木陰での休憩時間

みんなが歌い 踊る 完全に自由に

日本での卒業式 同じ灰色のスーツが並ぶだけ

でもあの場所では 一人一人が自分らしく立ち上がり感謝を大声で歌った

拙い英語で 心が許すままに踊りながら

誰も間違いを笑わなかった 誰も目をそらさなかった

その不格好で正直な勇気が あの日私を変えた

[Verse 4]

サンフランシスコの丘 夜明けの北京

ホノルルの空気 夜が来る台北

どの街も 日本の家にいては見えなかった何かを教えてくれた

日本を出るまで 自分が何を持っていたか知らなかった

東京の静かな街並み 見返りを求めない小さな優しさ

一度日本を離れて 初めて日本の価値を強く抱きしめられた

今 どこへ飛んでも 心の中に日本を運んでいる

もう言葉に止められない 壁はついに崩れ落ちた

どこかの国の代表としてじゃなく ただ純粋に私として

生まれ持った自分自身を 世界に向けて立ち上がって伝える

[Bridge]

最後のページがめくられるまで 続けていく

サブスタックが消えても この心は燃え続ける

お金のためじゃない 名声のためじゃない

まだ「仕事」という仮面に隠れている人たちのために

[Chorus - Final]

私はあなたに商品を売っているんじゃない

嘘を売っているんじゃない

ただあなたのそばに立っていたい

仮面を脱ぐ練習をするあなたの隣に

被っていた仮面にさよならを

内なる声にこんにちはを

これは売り物じゃない あなたらしさへの挑戦なんだ

[Outro]

少しだけ 机から顔を上げて

どこかで誰かが 通路で踊っている

舞台はいらない 観客もいらない

ただ本当の自分の声を 大きく歌えばいい

ただ本当の自分の声を 大きく歌えばいい

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2 AM, and I'm awake again.

Years ago, I collapsed on the floor. That day, I swore I'd never lose myself again.

For my family, for the company — swallowing my heart, holding it in, day after day.

But even if I give everything, all 99 out of 100, the company doesn't remember any of them now.

What changed me was a scene I witnessed in Tarlac, Luzon, in the Philippines.

No one laughed at the mistakes. No one looked away. Everyone stood up as themselves, singing loud and free.

That clumsy, honest courage changed me that day.

San Francisco, Beijing, Honolulu, Taipei — every city I visited taught me something I never saw at home.

And I realized: only after leaving Japan did I finally hold its value close to my heart.

This isn't a product. It isn't a lie.

I just want to stand beside you, as you practice taking off the mask.

That's the feeling behind this song.

[Lyrics]

[Verse 1]

2 AM, I wake up again

Not because I have to — a start I chose myself

Years ago, I collapsed on the floor

I swore I'd never lose myself again

[Verse 2]

Hands that work to build someone else's dream

For my family, for the company — swallowing my heart, holding it in

Even if I give everything, all 99 out of 100

The company doesn't remember any of them now

[Pre-Chorus]

Sometimes my health breaks down

Sometimes I lose the company's shallow praise

But if I lose myself

Does that pain even mean anything?

[Chorus]

I'm not selling you a product

I'm not selling you a lie

I just want to stand beside you

Next to you, as you practice taking off the mask

Goodbye to the mask you used to wear

Hello to the voice inside

This isn't for sale — it's a challenge to be who you are

[Verse 3]

Sun over Tarlac, Luzon, Philippines — resting in the shade

Everyone singing, dancing, completely free

Graduation in Japan, just rows of the same gray suits

But there, each person stood up as themselves, singing thanks out loud

Dancing in broken English, letting their hearts lead

No one laughed at the mistakes, no one looked away

That clumsy, honest courage changed me that day

[Verse 4]

Hills of San Francisco, dawn breaking over Beijing

The air of Honolulu, night falling on Taipei

Every city taught me something I never saw at home

I didn't know what I had until I left Japan

The quiet streets of Tokyo, small kindness asking nothing back

Only after leaving did I hold Japan's value close to my heart

Now, wherever I fly, I carry Japan inside me

Words can't hold me back anymore — the wall finally came down

Not as a representative of any country, just purely as myself

I stand up and speak the self I was born with, out to the world

[Bridge]

I'll keep going until the last page turns

Even if Substack disappears, this heart keeps burning

Not for money, not for fame

For the ones still hiding behind the mask called "work"

[Chorus - Final]

I'm not selling you a product

I'm not selling you a lie

I just want to stand beside you

Next to you, as you practice taking off the mask

Goodbye to the mask you used to wear

Hello to the voice inside

This isn't for sale — it's a challenge to be who you are

[Outro]

Just lift your eyes from the desk for a moment

Somewhere, someone is dancing in the hallway

No stage needed, no audience needed

Just sing your true voice, loud and clear

Just sing your true voice, loud and clear

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【Peace Was Always Here】

Peace isn't something you feel because you did something —

it's always there, underneath everything.

That's the idea behind this song.

Being true to yourself. Choosing your own path, your own colors,

your own choices — that's what peace and happiness are made of.

This is a belief that comes from my own experience.

And it's why I tell my children: not "listen to your parents,"

but listen to your own senses.

▼ Lyrics

[Verse 1]

I didn't notice, but it was here

No special reason, it's always near

On days I force a smile, on days I lose my way

It's waiting quietly, peace is here to stay

[Chorus]

Find your way back, to being true

Choose your own path, your favorite hue

You don't have to live someone else's life

Peace and happiness are already here inside

[Verse 2]

Killing my heart, doing what I don't want to do

At work, at home, playing someone I'm not true to

On days like that, peace never comes around

This truth I've learned, from what I've found

[Chorus]

Find your way back, to being true

Choose your own path, your favorite hue

You don't have to live someone else's life

Peace and happiness are already here inside

[Bridge]

To my children, this is what I want to say

Not "listen to your parents" — find your own way

Trust in your own senses, let them be your guide

Your favorite clothes, your favorite choice, decide

[Chorus]

Find your way back, to being true

Choose your own path, your favorite hue

You don't have to live someone else's life

Peace and happiness are already here inside

[Outro]

I didn't notice, but it was here

It's always been here, always near

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