How can someone forgive a sinless God?

Shanda Miller's early life was molded by fear, abuse, and hatred. She witnessed her mother being abused over and over again until one night, in the summer of 1984, her mother was shot and left for dead. Everything Shanda knew about God and had heard in church seemed like a lie as each year passed with more abuse and disappointment.

Losing her father, then her mentor, and herself, was all it took to be angry with a God who she always heard was loving and generous. After a lifetime of loss, she set out on a journey to find out who she was meant to be. She faced many obstacles while looking for a still-faced, angry God through the lens of the wreckage of her life.

 Shanda candidly tells her side of the story where anger meets forgiveness on the proverbial road of life. Through the innocent eyes of a seven-year-old girl to the cold, lifeless woman who walked the same dreaded boulevard of broken dreams and broken promises that had haunted generations of mothers before her, Shanda reveals how the fear and hatred molded her, but God's love broke that mold. Her anger at God for the lifetime of abuse fell away and the barriers blocking her from finding the real God crumbled around her the day she boldly said, "God, I forgive you."