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this queer history month, we sit with the fierce & quietly radical life of Bessie Head

a woman shaped by exile... a mother navigating survival... a writer who carved entire interior worlds out of displacement & doubt

through her novels & short stories, Bessie examined power, belonging, race, desire & the fragile architecture of identity

her work remains sharp, intimate & unsettling in the best way

this episode honours her voice, her contradictions & the legacy she left stitched across African literature

the photograph referenced: https://porfinenafrica.com/wp-content/uploads/2012/12/bessie-head.jpg

books referenced: When Rain Clouds Gather (1968), Maru (1971), A Question of Power (1973), The Collector of Treasures and Other Botswana Village Tales (1977)

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still riding that Kevin trainnn!

waittt... MAYBE it's because I never truly got the chance to ride...

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take a ride with me into the strange, winding logic of people pleasing... it’s what we do out of perceived obligation, while love is what we choose, freely & on purpose

somewhere along the way, the two got tangled & many of us started calling self-sacrifice connection

in this episode, I untangle the mess & ask what it might feel like to choose ourselves without guilt

because we all deserve to be chosen by our selves first, before being chosen by anyone else

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take a ride with me down the memory lane of delusion as I continue "the Kevin series", sharing one of his firsts... and one of mine

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somehow I forgot to mention that my highest self is love embodied & therefore is god to me.

love, in its highest form, is not just in feeling but in action... a choice to grow, to care & to connect.

drawing from bell hooks’ radical definition of love & Londrelle’s soulful meditation on intimacy, not as give/take, rather an experience of sharing, this reflection explores love as a powerful, spiritual force.

together, our words illuminate how love reveals our brightest light when practised with consideration, respect & honesty, while also exposing the shadows of ego, desire & fear.

this is a discussion about what we have been taught love is & the sacred practice I actually believe it to be.

Credits: Inspired by bell hooks (All About Love: New Visions) & Londrelle ("Intimacy" from "Sunflower Soul", 2018).

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somehow I forgot to mention that chaos theory, with the butterfly effect at its core, shows how tiny, spontaneous sparks can ripple out & create surprising outcomes.

organized chaos (theory) is where those small, curious moments collide, revealing hidden patterns, chance connections & a little magic in the everyday.

so sit back & sip slow... the tea is still served hot, even when it's warm outside!