what is a mystic? and can you have spiritual gifts without practicing any religion at all?

courtney, known as sisi in brasil, says yes, and she has the strangers' stories to back it up. recorded live from her patio in bahia, brazil, with the ocean breeze coming through the window, she describes what it actually feels like to live mystic. "my everyday reality feels like i'm moving in and out of different levels of different realms," she says, "and into people's energetic spheres and portals that are often unseen, sometimes felt."

she does not get there through ceremony or substance. she gets there through repetition. sanding wood. working in the yard. anything that lets her hands move while her mind goes somewhere else. master craftsmen talk about the same thing, she says, that quiet drop into another place.

then the part that is harder to explain away. multiple people, strangers to each other, in different cities, on separate occasions, have described seeing her during their own altered states, years before they ever met her in person. "i've never met in advance, i've met after the fact," she says. same description. same energy. every time.

she is not claiming to be rare. "we all are the tool," she says. not the crystal, not the card deck, not the substance. you.

this episode is for the woman who already feels something stirring that she has no religious language for. the one who has never done a ceremony but recognizes herself anyway. the one done waiting for a teacher's permission to believe her own experience counts.

sisi also asks a question she thinks more people should ask before handing over their trust: how is your spiritual teacher showing up in the flesh, healthy or not?

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in this episode of i taste like magic, sisi in brasil explains why she created the respite, what it is, and what it is not. this is not the porch. it is not guided. it is not a place where she is holding conversation, facilitating energy, or carrying the room.

it is a quiet online space built for pause, grounding, privacy, and energetic reset.

recorded from bahia, brazil, this episode moves through the real reasons behind the space: privacy, nervous system overload, social media noise, energetic sensitivity, detachment, and the need for somewhere softer that still lets people feel connected without being swallowed by algorithms.

major talking points:

• the respite is not the porch, and there are no peer guides or guided conversations.
• sisi explains why privacy and security matter now, especially compared to how things felt when the porch began in 2017.
• she talks about living between two places in brazil, both with beautiful views she cannot fully share publicly.
• she describes feeling heavy, itchy, foggy, and energetically affected before connecting it to a larger energetic shift.
• she explains how social media, loud trending audio, and constant scrolling can affect the nervous system.
• the respite was created as an online space that feels offline.
• visitors can watch quiet videos, listen to natural sounds, sit with scenery, or use the private forum.
• the forum is hosted outside major social platforms, so people can speak without feeding an algorithm.
• sisi makes clear that she is not there to facilitate conversation or hold everyone’s energy.
• she talks about detachment, friendship, capacity, and why disappearing is not always personal.
• the space includes reminders from past homes and sacred places, including detroit, oklahoma, and florida.
• the point is not to make the respite the tool. the point is to remind people to regulate themselves.

the respite is a pause.

not a performance.

not a classroom.

not another place to be consumed.

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you can watch the YouTube video "doom scrolling" at https://www.youtube.com/live/jPRmfwlro_Y?si=G8HHIWp-mbhZBjza

Podcast Description

In this episode of I Taste Like Magic, Courtney, also known as Sisi in Brasil, talks about what it means when someone “makes you sick” literally, not as a figure of speech.

Using mirror touch synesthesia as the entry point, she explains how her body has long responded to other people’s pain, hidden pressure, emotional misalignment, and dishonesty. She reflects on her years as haveAwonderful... and THOTReader, her work with intuitive women, and why she has never believed spiritual gifts need to fit a polished aesthetic. The episode moves from intuitive body-reading to the power of words, especially casual phrases like “I’m dead,” “you make me sick,” and “wait till you get old.”

Courtney makes clear that she is not speaking as a doctor or therapist. This is a personal reflection on intuition, embodiment, language, spiritual integrity, and the way repeated untruths or careless words can create real energetic and physical consequences. She also connects the conversation to a Lingua by Sisi https://lingua.faafo.app/ bilingual song about exhaustion and rest.

Takeaways

• Your body may know when something is out of alignment before your mind admits it.
• Words are not harmless just because they are common.
• Spirituality does not require a costume, crystal, aesthetic, or external tool.
• Dishonesty becomes heavier when someone claims they want healing, growth, or alignment.
• Not every phrase passed down by elders needs to be accepted or repeated.
• “I’m exhausted” is different from casually speaking death (Tô Morta) over yourself.
• Pay attention to who makes you sick, and whether you are making yourself or others sick through words, behavior, or avoidance.

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