For 26 years, weed was part of my identity.

I started smoking at 15.
It felt cool. It felt freeing. It felt like it helped me cope.

But somewhere along the way… it stopped working.

In this episode, I talk honestly about my experience with long-term cannabis use — how it changed over the years, how the potency feels different now, the questions around pesticides and chemicals, and the severe stomach symptoms that started showing up for me.

The abdominal pain.
Rushing to hot baths.
Ginger tea at 2 a.m.
My wife having to take care of me while I tried to manage symptoms.

I’m not anti-weed. I’m not villainizing it.
Everyone’s body is different.

But if something in your life — weed or anything else — is causing more harm than good, you’re allowed to question it. You’re allowed to stop. You’re allowed to see who you are without it.

I’m four months sober now.
This is part of my process.
And I’m committed to getting better — and helping others do the same.For 26 years, weed was part of my identity.

I started smoking at 15.
It felt cool. It felt freeing. It felt like it helped me cope.

But somewhere along the way… it stopped working.

In this episode, I talk honestly about my experience with long-term cannabis use — how it changed over the years, how the potency feels different now, the questions around pesticides and chemicals, and the severe stomach symptoms that started showing up for me.

The abdominal pain.
Rushing to hot baths.
Ginger tea at 2 a.m.
My wife having to take care of me while I tried to manage symptoms.

I’m not anti-weed. I’m not villainizing it.
Everyone’s body is different.

But if something in your life — weed or anything else — is causing more harm than good, you’re allowed to question it. You’re allowed to stop. You’re allowed to see who you are without it.

I’m four months sober now.
This is part of my process.
And I’m committed to getting better — and helping others do the same.

Coming Back Online is about honesty, healing, and personal responsibility.

I share my lived experience — not medical advice, not judgments, and not instructions for anyone else.