Ketamine, Nothingness, and the Reset Your Soul Has Been Waiting For

Hormones wake up your body. But what wakes up your soul?

My first time with ketamine, I ended up flat on a dance floor swearing I’d never touch it again. Years later, with the right guidance and intention, it became my favorite reset button.

In this episode, I sit down with two women who made that shift possible.

Meg Randle, NP, is my personal ketamine therapist. She prescribes my medicine and guides me through the process. We talk about how at-home ketamine therapy works, who it’s for, and what changed for me and my husband.

Sarah Cunningham, MSc, is a neuropsychology-trained practitioner who supports clients in ketamine clinics and founded VoyageKit. She takes us deeper into integration: how to prepare, what to do with what comes up, and how to make the reset last.

We also get into why “nothingness” can be the most healing place you’ve ever been, and why midlife women carrying everyone might need this kind of reset most.

This is not medical advice. Ketamine is a prescription medicine. Talk to a licensed provider before starting.

Resources from this episode:

• Meg Randle, NP (prescribes in Utah, Colorado, and Oregon): beekindnp@proton.me
• VoyageKit (Sarah’s integration kits and wellness portal): https://www.voyagekit.co
• Better U (at-home ketamine therapy in about 30 states): https://betteru.pxf.io/Jk0G5q

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Salad. Donuts. Or... the whole buffet?

Marcella is back with her favorite co-conspirator Ashlyn (@this.isashlynn) for a conversation that is equal parts hilarious, healing, and long overdue.

They were both raised in the Mormon church — where sex was sacred, self-pleasure was a confessional offense, and your body was something to be managed, not enjoyed. So now that they're out? They've had to completely rebuild their relationship with one of the most natural things in the world.

The question on the table: is sex like salad — nourishing, wholesome, good for you — or is it like a donut — indulgent, a little naughty, and something you still kind of feel guilty about after?

Spoiler: it's neither. It's both. It's the entire buffet.

They get into the programming that never fully goes away, the weird guilt that shows up even when you know better, and what it actually looks like to reclaim pleasure when you were taught it wasn't yours to have in the first place. It's raw, it's funny, and it's the kind of conversation that will make you feel a lot less alone.

Pull up a plate. This one's a full spread.

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Buckle up, we've got two Ex Mormon midlife women sharing how they went from everything matters to NOTHING matters!

Marcella is joined by her friend and partner-in-chaos Ashlyn (@this.isashlyn) to talk about something they've both been sitting with for a while: the idea that nothing matters — and why that belief might actually be the most grounding, most freeing, most feeling thing either of them has ever encountered.

As two women who grew up in the Mormon church, they were wired from the beginning to believe that everything mattered — eternally. Every decision carried cosmic weight. Fast forward to now, and a few meaningful experiences with psychedelics have completely rewired how they move through the world.

This episode is equal parts hilarious and profound. They talk about the moments that cracked them open, why "nothing matters" doesn't mean you stop caring or stop feeling — it actually means the opposite — and what it looks like to live a life where you're not performing for an outcome, you're just actually here.

If you've ever felt the relief of letting something go that was never really yours to carry, this one's for you.

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Ashlyn is the host of THIS IS ASHLYN podcast, and hosts midlife awakening retreats! Go follow her, she will light up your life♥