**Is Your Nervous System Stuck in Survival Mode? | The Trauma of "Rapture Practice" & Purity Culture**

Did you grow up "practicing" for the Rapture? Do you still feel a spike of panic when you can’t find your parents, or feel a deep-seated shame about your body that you just can't shake?

In this powerful episode of the **Un Holier Podcast**, we sit down with mental health professional Paula Yost to deconstruct the hidden scars left by evangelical and charismatic Christian environments. We’re diving deep into the science of **Religious Trauma Syndrome** and why your "anxiety" might actually be a physiological response to years of fear-based teaching.

### **In This Episode, We Discuss:**

* **The "Rapture Practice" Phenomenon:** How being told you could be "left behind" at any moment floods a child's brain with cortisol, rewiring the nervous system for chronic anxiety.
* **The Dark Side of Purity Culture:** Why tying a person's worth to sexual "purity" destroys autonomy, ruins consent, and creates long-term sexual dysfunction.
* **The Cortisol Connection:** Paula breaks down the clinical impact of fear-based theology on the developing brain—leading to lifelong struggles with rumination and depression.
* **Church Hypocrisy & Power Abuse:** Identifying the patterns of boundary violations and the systemic harm done to the LGBTQ+ community, including the devastating reality of conversion therapy.
* **The Road to Deconstruction:** How to reclaim your identity, set healthy boundaries, and find authentic support after leaving a high-control religious environment.

**If you found this video helpful, please Like, Subscribe, and share your story in the comments. You are not alone, and healing is possible.**

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🚨 SHE’S FINALLY SPEAKING OUT.

The system is broken, and Jenny has the receipts to prove it. In the explosive conclusion to our 3-part series, we’re pulling back the curtain on the family court nightmare that almost cost a mother everything.

Think the courts always favor the mom? Think again.

Jenny, David, and Ryan sit down for their most raw conversation yet, exposing what happens when an abusive narcissist turns a child into a weapon. From chilling coached voicemails to the terrifying reality of unsubstantiated CPS reports involving child pornography and weapons—this episode is a masterclass in survival against a master manipulator.

⚠️ WHAT WE’RE UNCOVERING:

• The "Weaponized" Toddler: The heartbreaking moment Jenny received a voicemail of her baby girl saying, "I hate you."
• The CPS Failure: How serious allegations against her ex fell through the cracks of a broken system.
• The Church’s Judgment: Why the pews felt colder as the legal battle heated up.
• The Step-Dad’s Role: How Ryan stepped into the line of fire to protect his family.
• 20 Years Later: Where is her daughter now? The shocking realization that changed everything.

This isn’t just a story about divorce; it’s about the financial ruin, psychological warfare, and the ultimate fight for a daughter’s soul.

"They call it 'the best interest of the child,' but in practice, it felt like a ransom negotiation."

#UnholierPodcast #FamilyCourt #NarcissisticAbuse #CoParentingHighConflict #CPSFailures #LegalAbuse #NarcissisticParent #Storytime #SystemicFailure #SurvivorStory #ParentalAlienation #TruthTold

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In this moving in-person episode of the Unholier Podcast, guest host David Keck continues the conversation with Jenny Smith. In Part 2, Jenny explores the complex intersection of family life and the Independent Fundamental Baptist (IFB) church, reflecting on how the rigid expectations of the ministry influenced her father’s approach to parenting.

Jenny shares deeply personal memories, including the painful moments where church doctrine took precedence over protection. From being held accountable for things beyond her control to discovering how her father managed her early relationships behind the scenes, she illustrates the intense pressure fundamentalism places on the family unit.

In this episode, we cover:

• Faith & Fatherhood: How church culture and IFB doctrine influenced her upbringing.
• Control and Misogyny: The impact of labels like "Jezebel" and the weight of purity culture.
• The Cycle of Abuse: Connecting a fear-based upbringing to the realities of her first marriage.
• Choosing Freedom: The harrowing journey of leaving with her baby and navigating the aftermath of domestic violence.
• Healing & Parenting: How deconstruction has allowed Jenny to break generational cycles and find a new perspective on God.

Jenny’s story is a powerful look at the struggle to reclaim one's identity while navigating the shadows of a high-control religious environment.

Subscribe to the Unholier Podcast for more stories of resilience, deconstruction, and finding hope after trauma.

#UNHolierPodcast #ReligiousTrauma #IFB #Fundie #Deconstruction #SpiritualAbuse #DomesticViolence #NarcissisticAbuse #Exvangelical #PurityCulture #ArrangedMarriage #ChurchHurt #TraumaRecovery #SurvivingISH #JennySmith

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In this incredibly raw and unfiltered episode of the UnHolier Podcast, host Jennifer sits down with retired U.S. Navy Chief Troy Ulshoeffer (Founder of Vines and Valor and Co-Founder of Change Unchained). Troy’s story isn’t just about military service; it’s about the terrifying moment your entire reality—religion, politics, and identity—collapses at once.

Troy opens up about the "TikTok rabbit hole" that forced him to confront narcissism within the church, the heartbreaking mental health crisis his son faced, and the devastating loss of his mother to suicide in 2023. After facing his own "dark night of the soul" and a suicidal crisis, Troy turned to a controversial path for healing: Ayahuasca.

From the rigid theology of Liberty University to the jungles of spiritual medicine, this is a journey of deconstructing a life built on patriarchy and finding a new mission in anti-trafficking advocacy and veteran healing.

If you’ve ever felt lost in your faith, struggled with PTSD, or wondered if there’s a better way to heal, this episode is for you. #ptsd #deconstruction #navychief #ayahuascahealing #churchtrauma #VinesAndValor #mentalhealthmatters #religioustrauma #veteransupport #UnHolierPodcast

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Was the Zodiac Hidden in the Bible? Gilgamesh, Jesus, Paul, and Suppressed Star Knowledge (Holier Podcast)

On the Unholier podcast, the host interviews Indy, and author and researcher about alleged links between the Bible, the Zodiac, ancient texts like the Epic of Gilgamesh, and historical sources such as Josephus, arguing that biblical language and symbols (e.g., “Mazzaroth,” the star of the wise men, Lamb of God, fisher of men, the man with the water pitcher, the “bow” in Noah’s story, and the four horsemen) reflect astrological/astronomical “coding” tied to shifting ages and priestly power. They discuss why churches and seminaries may not teach this material, how Israelite worship included multiple gods and zodiac-related motifs, and how Christian literalism can reinterpret inconvenient details. The guest also connects laying on of hands to energy healing, critiques traditional images of Jesus, and presents full preterism (Revelation and end-times fulfilled in the first century) as a healthier framework for deconstruction, while promoting the guest’s Amazon book on these ideas. #god #BIBLE # #zodiac

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Jennifer and Kristin Watson, both raised in the IFB/IFB cult environment, discuss the extreme control and purity culture placed on girls—no voice or autonomy but full responsibility for men’s “stumbling”—and how that created impossible standards and identity loss. Kristin explains being taught she was sinful from birth and believing she was “evil” after leaving, then slowly rebuilding her identity by reclaiming femininity, dancing, and returning to figure skating, which she once surrendered at youth camp under pressure. She describes rigid rules and surveillance at Crown College, public shaming, political indoctrination, and how she and Nick fell in love, were nearly disciplined, and ultimately ran away at 19. Excommunication, family severance, vindictive retaliation, and years of survival followed. They reflect on evolving beliefs (agnostic/humanist) and Kristin’s nonprofit work supporting single parents as a way to break the cycle and lead with love. #cult #religiouscult #IFB

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DID PAUL STEAL THE GOSPEL? 😱 | The Unholier Podcast

Is the Christianity you know based on Jesus... or a Roman cover-up?

This week on The Unholier Podcast, Jenny sits down with Paul from RealGoodNews.org for an explosive conversation that dismantles 2,000 years of church tradition. If you’ve ever felt like the "Red Letters" of Jesus don’t match the rest of the Bible, this episode is your wake-up call.

We’re diving deep into the historical feud between Paul the Apostle and James (Jesus’ actual brother). Was the early church hijacked? Why does the God of the Old Testament seem so different from the Jesus of the New Testament? From the "genocide" in Numbers 31 to the forged letters in your Bible, we aren’t holding back.

🔍 Inside the Episode:

• The Great Hijack: Why modern churches prioritize Paul’s letters over Jesus’ direct teachings.
• The Nazarene Conflict: The hidden battle between Paul and the Jerusalem Church led by James.
• Bible or Propaganda? A look at Roman councils, human-authored forgeries, and factual contradictions.
• Blood Atonement vs. Repentance: Why the "pagan" idea of blood sacrifice might be overshadowing Jesus’ true message of love.
• Christ Consciousness: What it really means when Jesus says, "The Kingdom of Heaven is within you."

🌟 About Our Guest:

Paul is the founder of RealGoodNews.org, a community dedicated to deconstructing traditional dogma to find the authentic message of the historical Jesus. He offers coaching and resources for those seeking spiritual "oneness" outside the walls of organized religion.

📢 Join the Conversation:

Do you think Paul changed the message, or was he just "interpreting" it for the world? Drop a comment below—we’re reading them all!

Don't forget to LIKE, SUBSCRIBE, and hit the BELL to stay Unholier. 😈

#Christianity #Deconstruction #JesusVsPaul #ChristConsciousness #TheUnholierPodcast #BibleContradictions #ChurchHistory #RealGoodNews #SpiritualAwakening #KingdomWithin

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Host Jenny Smith & Guest Host from Surviving-ISH Podcast David Keck introduce Kirsten, a psychic medium and healer who owns Revive Wellness Spa & Studio in Flushing, Michigan, and discuss her appearances on the Un-Holier podcast. Kirsten explains that everyone has intuition, how to distinguish gut guidance from ego-based fear, and how dreams can bring guidance, including premonitions, color vs black-and-white dreams, and the difference between astral travel and lucid dreaming. She shares views on past lives, recurring phobias, déjà vu, dimensions and vibration, and the ideas of “Earth school” vs “Earth hospital,” soul contracts, and how trauma can heighten psychic abilities. The group also covers signs from loved ones (like finding dimes), protection practices, dealing with curses via “return to sender,” boundaries in readings, tarot vs oracle cards, and plans to do a future live group reading. #tiktoklive #YouTube #psychicenergy #medium

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