There are some stories we carry quietly.

In this first episode of The Weight of Love, Ash opens the door to the personal story that shaped the podcast. He reflects on his mum Hellen’s life-changing stroke, becoming her carer before fully understanding what that meant, turning the family living room into a care space, learning intimate care in real time, advocating in hospital settings and navigating the emotional weight of responsibility, grief, culture and family expectations.

This episode is not only about loss. It is about love, duty, guilt, strength, anger, faith, health, friendship, community and trying to find yourself again after life has taken you somewhere you never expected.

Ash also shares how a small circle of friends and family helped carry him through, how grief affected his own health, and how movement, advocacy and reflection became part of his journey back to himself.

This first episode is dedicated to Ash’s mum, Hellen.

The Weight of Love is a podcast about caregiving, grief, chronic illness, resilience, identity, family, community and the real-life experiences that shape us.

Please listen in a way that is kindest to you. This episode includes references to stroke, caring for a parent, hospital experiences, intimate personal care, bereavement and grief.

Support

This episode includes references to stroke, caring for a parent, hospital experiences, intimate personal care, bereavement, grief and emotional overwhelm.

If this episode brings anything up for you, please reach out to someone you trust or contact one of the support services below.

Stroke Association

For information and support after stroke, including support for families and carers.

Helpline: 0303 3033 100

Website: stroke.org.uk

Carers UK

For advice, information and support for unpaid carers.

Helpline: 0808 808 7777

Available Monday to Friday, 9am to 6pm, including bank holidays.

Website: carersuk.org

Cruse Bereavement Support

For bereavement support and help making sense of grief after someone dies.

Helpline: 0808 808 1677

Website: cruse.org.uk

Samaritans

For free emotional support, day or night, if you are struggling or need someone to talk to.

Phone: 116 123

Website: samaritans.org

This podcast is based on lived experience and is not clinical, legal or financial advice. If you are worried about your health or someone else’s health, please contact NHS 111, your GP, or call 999 in an emergency.