Becoming a CRNA isn't just an academic challenge. It's an identity transformation.

In this episode of The Mindful Aspiring Nurse Anesthesia Podcast, I introduce a powerful framework that explains something many aspiring CRNAs experience but struggle to put into words: Why is this so hard? And why does this journey sometimes feel so bad?

Welcome The 7 Identity Crises of the CRNA Journey!

At every stage of this path — from deciding to apply to stepping into your role as a new CRNA — your sense of identity is challenged, stretched, and reshaped. And if you don't understand what's happening psychologically, it's easy to believe something is wrong with you.

But the truth is:

Nothing is wrong with you.

These internal struggles are a normal part of becoming the provider you're meant to be.

In this episode, we explore:

• The 7 Identity Crises every future CRNA experiences
• Why imposter syndrome shows up again and again during this journey and how to overocme it
• The hidden psychological shifts that happen from ICU nurse → NAR → CRNA
• Why strategy alone won't move you forward
• How confidence, resilience, and leadership are built during the journey — not after you arrive

You'll learn about the key identity transitions many people face:

1. The Worthiness Crisis – "Am I good enough to apply?"

2. The Decision Crisis – "Is this dream worth the sacrifice?"

3. The Imposter Crisis – "Did they make a mistake accepting me?"

4. The Competence Crisis – Going from expert ICU nurse to beginner again

5. The Pressure Crisis – Learning to regulate yourself under high stakes

6. The Identity Integration Crisis – Student → Provider

7. The Leadership Crisis – Who will you become once you arrive?

This episode is a reminder that becoming a CRNA is not just about mastering pharmacology or passing boards but about developing the internal leadership, emotional intelligence, and resilience required to care for patients when their lives are most vulnerable.

Because great anesthetists aren't just knowledgeable, they're steady under pressure.

If you've ever questioned whether you belong on this path, felt the weight of imposter syndrome, or wondered why the journey feels so mentally intense — this episode will give language to what you're experiencing and help you move forward with clarity and confidence.

You're not just surviving this journey.

You're becoming someone extraordinary.

LINKS MENTIONED IN THE EPISODE:

www.amandakaycrna.com

YouTube: Why a CRNA School Acceptance Won't Fix your ICU Burn-out

**FREE 15min Consult: Email amandakayonline@gmail.com with your availabiity

Welcome back to The Mindful Aspiring CRNA Podcast.

In this episode, I'm diving into a conversation that's long overdue in healthcare: mentoring vs. coaching — what they are, what they aren't, and why the distinction actually matters more than we think.

If you've ever wondered:

• "Why would I pay for coaching when I can get advice for free?"

• "Is coaching even legit?"

• "Isn't this just mindset fluff?"

• "Shouldn't healthcare professionals be able to handle things on their own?"

This episode is for you.

I share my own very real, very skeptical beginning with coaching back in 2020 — when I was a brand new mom, working 24-hour shifts during the height of the pandemic, juggling personal challenges, and silently white-knuckling my way through it all. Hiring a coach didn't just help me "feel better." It changed how I led at work, how I showed up in my marriage, how I built my business, and how I took care of my own nervous system.

And that's the part we don't talk about enough in healthcare.

We are trained to manage everyone else's physiology — but not our own.

In this episode, I unpack:

• Why mentorship is powerful — but often incomplete

• How coaching goes deeper than strategy and into identity

• The nervous system science behind procrastination, perfectionism, and imposter syndrome

• Why high-achievers often stall despite "knowing what to do"

• The 4 P's that quietly dominate the CRNA journey: Perfectionism, Productivity, Performance, and People-Pleasing

• Why burnout is normalized — but personal development is not

• The truth about paying for coaching and the psychology behind commitment

• 6 reasons you absolutely should not get a coach

This isn't about hype.
It's not about "just think positive."
It's not about someone telling you what to do.

It's about learning how to lead yourself.

Because you can know everything… and still not execute.
You can look successful… and still feel shaky inside.
You can hustle toward your goals… without building the character required to sustain them.

If you're an aspiring CRNA who feels stuck in cycles of overthinking, overworking, self-doubt, or emotional reactivity — this conversation will challenge you in the best way.

Healthcare doesn't need tougher people. It needs developed leaders.

So listen with an open mind and then decide for yourself if coaching is for you or not.

I'll see you inside the episode.

LINKS MENTIONED:

• Want a 15min FREE Consult? Email me your availabiity at amandakayonline@gmail.com
• Follow me on IG @amandakcrna or my YouTube Channel
• Roadmap Coaching for RNs
• Coaching for NAR/RRNAs
• Website: www.amandakaycrna.com

What happens to the version of you who survives CRNA school… once life keeps evolving?

In this honest and deeply reflective episode of The Mindful Nurse Anesthesia Resident Podcast, Amanda sits down with Sarah, CRNA and founder of Mooxli, for a conversation about growth, identity, resilience, and the many seasons of a CRNA career.

From starting in the ER and traveling with her nurse husband… to navigating waitlists, pivots, and the illusion of the "perfect time" to apply — Sarah shares how nursing has shaped her path in unexpected ways. Together, they unpack the life-changing evolution from the person you were in CRNA school to the person you become afterward — and why waiting is never passive if you're committed to your growth.

This episode explores:
✨ The power of agency — and why you can't hand your well-being over to circumstances
✨ The in-between seasons of waiting, transitioning, and redefining your identity
✨ The struggles and unhealthy patterns that got her through CRNA school — and what she learned from them
✨ Rural practice, career pivots, contracts, and the realities of first jobs
✨ Turning pain into purpose through Mooxli and building true resilience
✨ Why community, values, and self-compassion matter more than perfection

You'll also hear about the moment she almost quit CRNA school, how to walk through what feels impossible, and the three truths she shares to close out this powerful conversation.

If you've ever wondered:
Does the perfect time for CRNA school really exist?
Who's responsible for my well-being during this journey?
What happens after CRNA school?

This episode is for you!

Because the goal isn't just becoming a CRNA — it's becoming someone who can evolve through every season that follows.

MOOXLI Website

Follow Sarah on IG

Books mentioned in the episode:

Say Less, Get More

Necessary Endings

Fawning