Hey loves 💕

This is one of the most vulnerable episodes I’ve ever recorded.

In this powerful solocast, I share for the first time how “Dee” — the bold, sensual, always-on character I performed for years — was officially born when I entered the swinging lifestyle. For a long time I couldn’t even see where Dee ended and the real me began. There was a clear split in my psyche: I could show up fully in sexual intimacy as Dee, but emotional intimacy stayed locked away behind a wall. I was performing… and slowly dissociating from myself.

I walk you through the exact moment the mask became a cage, the dark nights when it finally cracked open, the grief that followed, the terrifying void, and the gentle reclamation that brought me back home to Cylla.

Together we explore:

• Why we create masks in the first place (and why they stop working)

• The 5 stages of shedding the mask (Awakening, Grief, Void, Reclamation & Embodiment)

• How true self-love can only begin when we stop performing and start unmasking

• The profound ripple effects this journey has on intimacy, relationships, dharma, manifestation, and energy

• Gentle practices to support your own unmasking

This episode is deep medicine for anyone who has ever felt like they’re playing a character in their own life, splitting themselves between who they show the world and who they really are inside.

If you’re craving to feel whole again. Sexually, emotionally, and spiritually. This one is for you.

Grab your journal, get cozy, and let’s walk this sacred path together. You don’t have to do it alone.

Included with this episode:

• Journal prompts & integration activities (Higher Tier Members)

• Private community discussion thread

Welcome home to yourself, beautiful soul.

I love you deeply.

Cylla ✨🙏