What is my "superhero origin story"? What happens when we cannot rest until everyone and everything else is taken care of? What happens when we believe if we could just do enough, be enough, get "there", earn all of the awards and promotions and titles and money and accumulate all of the things, that somehow we will no longer be afraid. Or desperately lonely? What happens when we have to choose--whether consciously or unconsciously--between being known and being safe? And what is so beautiful about my healing journey now as I learn how to expand beyond "neutral"? Join me for this episode where I explore all of this and more.

Our adaptations keep us alive. But not without cost. While my conscious beliefs were definitely problematic and contributed to my descent into burnout and mental illness, I have come to understand that underneath those conscious beliefs was nervous system patterning that fueled my capacity to run myself into the wall over and over and over again until my body and mind broke under the assault. In this episode I share a story about the retreat I didn't want to go to and how "what is underneath" is an invisible and yet powerful force that may be keeping us stuck.

It turns out that resting is hard (in this culture). And the truth is, I didn't really give myself permission to rest until I was literally no longer able to function. Until I had exhausted my body and mind almost beyond repair. In this episode I share some of the unhelpful and downright destructive beliefs, fears and patterning around rest that I have wrestled with and succumbed to in the past, and the ways in which I am working to reframe and repattern over the course of my healing journey. I hope some of these practices are helpful for you too!