What started as what was supposed to be a really fun and exciting day, quickly turned into one thing after another going wrong — missed plans, unexpected pivots, and honestly… my brain hitting a wall in real time.

This episode of Playdate became something I could’ve never anticipated or planned for. What began as a regular episode, turned into an unexpected Q&A, and then somehow, into a full-on, very real mental breakdown. From the very beginning of the episode, I genuinely couldn’t form a sentence, gather a thought, or pull myself together, and the more time passed, I continued to feel embarrassed, overwhelmed, unconfident, and emotional while trying to push through it. I was going back and forth with the decision to release this... Instead of cutting it out or pretending everything was fine, I ultimately made the choice to leave it in - because this is the reality sometimes.

We live in a world where social media shows the most polished version of people. The wins, the aesthetic moments, the perfectly articulated thoughts — but this episode is the complete opposite of that; the messy side, and the human side. The days where you wake up feeling off, nothing goes according to plan or as expected, and having to change course in real time; all while still trying to give yourself grace throughout it all.

I thought last week was the most vulnerable episode that I've released, but as it turns out, this may very well top that one. I’d be lying if I said releasing this isn’t sending me over the edge a bit, but the whole point of this podcast is to be raw, authentic, and to embrace our flaws. If you’ve ever had one of those days where your mind feels scrambled, your emotions take over, or you feel frustrated with yourself for not being “on,” this conversation is for you. It wasn’t one of my best days, but at least it was a real one.

I hope you have a good laugh at my tears… I’m sure one day looking back, I’ll be laughing at it too.

Welcome to your next Playdate – conversations you don’t rush.