She grew up a horse girl with no horses, with a single mum who sacrificed everything, and a body that started keeping score before she even knew what that meant.

In today's episode, Haley sits down with Ali Green, a backcountry horse guide and brand new owner of Kirkwood Sierra Outfitters, to talk about what happens when you spend your whole life half-committed to yourself. What starts as a story about a childhood dream deferred quickly becomes a conversation about autoimmune disease, the cost of people-pleasing, and what it finally took to go all in on the life she always wanted.

• Growing up caught between who she was and who her mother needed her to be, and the years of conflict that followed
• How suppressing her dreams showed up in her body, and why choosing herself was the only thing that quieted her lupus flares
• Cutting ties with her mum to find herself, and what it took to rebuild that relationship on new terms
• Ten years working for other people before she finally asked: if I'm doing all this work anyway, why am I not doing it for myself?
• The real cost of going all in: romantic relationships that couldn't survive the lifestyle, saying no to friends, and learning to give herself grace on the hard days
• Why she is still learning to sit with uncertainty and stop creating monsters that don't exist yet

This one isn't just about horses or chronic illness. It's about what it costs to keep abandoning yourself, and what becomes possible when you finally stop.

About Ali:

Specialising in backcountry horse travel, Ali brings a balance of horsemanship, grit, and hospitality to her partnership with Kirkwood Sierra Outfitters. With more than a decade of experience wrangling, packing, and guiding across some of the West's most rugged landscapes, from the Tetons to the Gospel Hump Wilderness, she's built a reputation for calm competence and thoughtful stewardship for both people and stock. She loves sharing stories and making memories from the back of a good horse.

Connect with Ali:

Website: www.kirkwoodsierraoutfitters.com

Facebook: Kirkwood Sierra Outfitters

Instagram: @kirkwoodsierraoutfitters

LinkedIn: Alison Green

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