What happens when you still love Father, still believe in Him, and still walk with Him—but there are places where trusting Him has become harder?

In this episode of Back to the Seed Conversations, Samantha Bishop explores the deeply personal process of rebuilding trust with Father when His response, timing, or direction doesn’t look like what we expected.

Through the story of Mary, Martha, and Lazarus in John 11, we look at what happens when we know Father is able, we know He cares, and yet we still find ourselves facing an outcome we hoped He would prevent.

This conversation makes room for the questions we don’t always know how to say out loud:

• Father, why did You allow this?
• Why didn’t You answer the way I expected?
• Can I still trust You when I don’t understand what You’re doing?

Rather than treating questions or disappointment as evidence of weak faith, this episode explores what it looks like to bring those places honestly back into relationship with Father.

We’ll talk about the difference between trusting Father’s character and trusting Him to produce a particular outcome, why surrender doesn’t require certainty, and how difficult experiences can quietly shape what we have come to believe about Him.

One central reminder anchors this conversation:

Surrender isn’t believing I know what Father will do. Surrender is trusting who Father is when I don’t know what He will do.

Maybe rebuilding trust doesn’t begin with having every question answered. Maybe it begins with becoming willing to bring our unanswered questions back into relationship.

This week, you’re invited to bring Father the unpolished version—the questions, disappointment, hurt, and places you still don’t understand—and allow Him to meet you there.

The book was the beginning. The conversation continues.