The Sacred SoulJourners Podcast isn’t here to preach—it’s here to walk the path with you.

We’re Zan and Troy—two people who didn’t just meet… we recognized each other in the fire. Through breakdowns, breakthroughs, and everything in between, we’re learning what it actually means to trust yourself, follow divine guidance, and choose love over fear.

This is for the spiritually curious—the ones who’ve outgrown dogma but still crave something real.

Around this fire, we talk about spiritual sovereignty, shadow work, inner child healing, and manifestation through living altars—but not as concepts… as lived experience. Nature is our teacher. The fire is our mirror. And every conversation is an invitation back to your own inner authority.

If you’ve ever felt like there’s more… but no clear map—
pull up a seat.

Takeaways

• Spiritual Sovereignty
• Curiosity over Dogma Manifestation through altars
• Spiritual guidance and intuition
• Inner child healing and shadow work
• Nature as a spiritual guide
• Journey of self-discovery and transformation

Chapters

• 00:00 Introduction to Sacred SoulJourners Podcast
• 06:24 Core Themes of the Podcast
• 12:01 Troy's Journey and Background
• 23:05 Divine Guidance and Spiritual Exploration
• 50:28 The Sacred Souljourner Journey

Episode 3 opens with a grounded prayer for peace, inviting listeners to reconnect with their hearts and step out of the noise of the world and into conscious awareness.

From there, Zan and Troy dive into one of the most subtle—but destructive—patterns we all carry: the stories we create in our minds.

Inspired by The Four Agreements, they unpack how assumptions and taking things personally quietly fuel conflict, disconnection, and emotional pain—especially in relationships.

Through real, vulnerable moments from their own week, they reveal how quickly the mind turns uncertainty into “truth”… and how often that truth isn’t real at all.

But the deeper work isn’t just awareness—it’s choice.

This conversation explores:

• The difference between reacting from old wounds vs. responding from your higher self
• How triggers reveal unhealed parts of you, not flaws in others
• Why most conflict is rooted in miscommunication, not intention
• And how simple tools—like pausing, asking clarifying questions, and breathing—can completely shift an outcome

Troy shares a powerful breakthrough in choosing presence over reaction in a heated moment, while Zan reflects on releasing control, victim patterns, and the habit of taking things personally.

They also introduce a practical next step: creating conscious relationship agreements—a framework that replaces assumption with clarity and alignment.

This episode is ultimately about reclaiming your energy.

Because when you stop believing every story your mind creates…
you stop giving your power away.

• Most suffering comes from stories—not reality
• Assumptions are guesses your mind turns into facts
• Taking things personally is often a reflection of old wounds
• Pause > React is a life-changing practice
• Clarity comes through breath, presence, and awareness
• Healthy relationships require clear agreements, not mind-reading
• Your power is in how you respond—not what happens to you

00:00 – Opening Prayer & Setting the Frequency
05:10 – How Assumptions Create False Reality
21:19 – Why We Take Things Personally (And How It Hurts Us)
27:05 – Breaking the Pattern: Reacting vs. Conscious Response
47:50 – Creating Relationship Agreements That Actually Work

Episode 2 drops us straight into the fire.

Awakening isn’t peaceful—it’s raw, emotional, and at times… confronting. In this conversation, we open up about what happens when old patterns rise to the surface and can no longer be ignored.

We explore samskaras—the emotional imprints that quietly run our reactions, our relationships, and our triggers—and what it looks like to finally see them in real time.

Through our own experiences, we talk about the intensity that comes with intimacy, how love becomes the mirror for what’s unresolved, and why awakening often feels like everything is falling apart before it comes back together.

This episode is about recognizing the patterns, sitting in the discomfort, and choosing to move through it instead of running from it.

If you’ve ever felt overwhelmed by your emotions, triggered in love, or confused by your own reactions…
this is the work.

Come sit with us at the fire.

Takeaways :

• Awakening brings emotional intensity—not just clarity
• Samskaras are the hidden drivers behind our reactions
• Intimacy reveals what still needs to be healed
• Childhood wounds show up in adult relationships
• Awareness is the first step—but integration is the work
• Gratitude and acceptance shift the healing process

Chapters :
00:00 Entering the Fire: Awakening & Emotional Intensity
07:00 Intimacy as the Mirror
11:54 Childhood Wounds & Repeating Patterns
35:13 Facing Aggression & Shadow in Real Time
49:00 Gratitude, Acceptance & Moving Forward

Sacred Souljourners — Official Trailer

Welcome to Sacred Souljourners — campfire conversations for the spiritually curious.

We're Troy Hawkner, a former Baptist evangelical preacher who walked away from the pulpit to rediscover the sacred on his own terms, and Zan Kavanah — transmission artist, wisdom keeper, founder of AQUAMANTRA Water, and Sacred Paint & Play facilitator who has spent over two decades teaching consciousness, manifestation, and heart-mind coherence through lived experience.

Together we explore spiritual awakening, shadow work, inner child healing, sacred relationship, vibration, and frequency — no dogma, no gurus, just two people walking the path openly and inviting you to pull up a chair.

In June 2026 we're hitting the road in a trailer with three dogs — hosting open fire circles wherever the sacred calls us.

If you found this — something in you is already ready.

Awaken. Trust. Align.

✨ JOIN THE SACRED SOULJOURNERS COMMUNITY: 🔥 Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/sacredsouljourners

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Sacred Souljourners is an independent podcast created with devotion to walking through the global fire together.

Episode 4 is about what it really means to walk through the fire… and become the one who holds it.

Not theory. Not spiritual fluff.
This is what it looks like to live as a firekeeper of your own heart in real time.

And here’s the truth… when you’re in flow—when you’re fully present and not trying to control every outcome—that’s when the magic actually happens.

Recorded after a powerful weekend in Sedona, this campfire conversation is different. It’s lighter, it’s real, and it’s full of stories—moments where Zan and Troy chose flow instead of control… and watched life meet them in ways they couldn’t have planned.

They share the shift from tension and emotional overwhelm into trust, alignment, and inner authority—not by getting it right, but by staying present when everything in you wants to react.

This is about letting old identities burn, stepping into sacred union without earning love, and learning to move with life instead of against it.

And in that space… something unexpected happens.
Alignment. Synchronicity. A proposal that didn’t come from pressure—but from truth.

If you’re in the in-between… if things are breaking down and you don’t fully understand why…
this is the work.

And flow? That’s the reward.

This is the fire. 🔥

Episode 5 drops us straight into the fire.

Love isn’t always soft—and this conversation doesn’t pretend it is. Around the fire on Sacred Souljourners, Zan and Troy sit with Heather Grace and Jason Michael of The Powers of Love to explore what it really means to be in an evolutionary relationship. This is where psychology meets lived experience—drawing from We: Understanding the Psychology of Romantic Love and Evolutionary Love Relationships: Passion, Authenticity, and Activism—and bringing it into the raw, unfiltered reality of love that challenges you to grow.

This isn’t theory—it’s happening in real time. As the conversation unfolds, Zan and Troy are actively processing their own patterns, triggers, and breakthroughs, revealing deeper truths as they move through them. You’ll hear what it sounds like when love becomes the mirror… when intimacy exposes what’s unresolved… and when two people choose to stay present instead of run. This is the work—messy, honest, and transformative.

If you’ve ever felt triggered in love, caught in patterns you don’t fully understand, or called into something deeper than surface-level connection…
come sit with us at the fire.

Takeaways :

• Evolutionary love challenges you to grow—not just feel good
• Triggers are doorways into deeper awareness
• Projection and unconscious patterns shape relationships
• Intimacy reveals what still needs healing
• Repair and presence are essential to conscious love
• Real transformation happens through lived experience

Chapters :

00:00 Entering the Fire: Love, Triggers & Awakening
07:00 Intimacy as the Mirror
12:30 Projection, Patterns & Deeper Truths
28:45 Real-Time Processing in Relationship
44:10 Repair, Compassion & Choosing Growth
58:00 Integration & Moving Forward

References & Resources

• Learn more about Heather & Jason: The Powers of Love
https://www.thepowersoflove.com/

• We: Understanding the Psychology of Romantic Love
https://a.co/d/0ihvbhTc

• Evolutionary Love Relationships: Passion, Authenticity, and Activism
https://a.co/d/0gaGP7sR

In this 6th episode we go into the fire.

Not surface-level healing. Not spiritual theory.
This is what it looks like when your patterns, triggers, and emotional reactions are no longer easy to ignore.

In this Month Two conversation—Purification by Fire: The Inner Child Revealed—we break open the truth behind the reactions that keep showing up in your life and your relationships.

Because what you’re reacting to…
is rarely what’s actually happening.

It’s the inner child.
The unmet need.

The old story still running underneath your present moment.

We talk about what happens when those patterns rise to the surface—how love becomes the mirror, how triggers expose what’s unresolved, and why emotional safety is often a hidden contract we don’t even realize we’re making.

This is about deconstructing the programming.

Naming what’s really there.
And learning how to sit in the fire… without abandoning yourself or projecting onto the person in front of you.

We also explore the deeper energetic layer of what’s happening right now—how current astrological shifts are amplifying emotional exposure and forcing a real audit of what’s sustainable moving forward.

This episode is raw.
It’s emotional.
And it’s honest about what it actually takes to move through trauma, reconnect to yourself, and stop letting the past run your present.

If you’ve been feeling triggered, disconnected, or unsure why things feel heavier than usual…

This is the work.

• Your triggers are rooted in the past, not the present
• The inner child drives more of your behavior than you think
• Emotional safety is often an unspoken contract in relationships
• Avoiding your patterns keeps them running
• Naming your feelings is the beginning of healing
• You don’t lose love—you lose capacity when you over-carry

00:00 — Walking Into the Fire: Awakening & Deconstruction
06:01 — The Inner Child & Where the Wound Begins
11:52 — Why Everything Feels Intensified Right Now
20:34 — What Inner Child Work Actually Means
31:19 — Triggers Are Time Machines
37:11 — The Hidden Contract of Love
46:15 — When the Light Exposes the Shadow
53:26 — Meeting the Inner Child in Real Time
01:00:32 — Naming the Feeling, Changing the Pattern
01:06:32 — You Don’t Complete Each Other—You Reveal Each Other

Episode 7: Buckle up!

What if the voice in your head… isn’t actually you?

In this deeply personal campfire conversation, Zan Kavanah and Troy Hawkner explore the ego, perception, emotional triggers, and the painful realization that many of our reactions are rooted in old survival patterns—not present moment truth.

Through raw stories from their own relationship, they unpack how childhood conditioning, trauma, the “pain body,” and inherited emotional programming shape the way we react, defend, control, and protect ourselves. Together, they explore what it really means to become aware of the ego while it’s happening—and how presence becomes the doorway to freedom.

This episode dives into:
• Why perception is not always truth
• How the ego defends identity and emotional pain
• The difference between reacting and responding
• The “pain body” and emotional looping
• Nervous system overwhelm and relationship triggers
• Why awareness weakens the ego
• The power of pause, presence, and conscious choice
• What it means to stop “dumpster diving” through old wounds

Recorded during the powerful Taurus New Moon and Fire Horse energies, this conversation is an invitation to burn away illusion, loosen the grip of the past, and remember who you are beneath the story.

Resources mentioned in this episode:

📘 Eckhart Tolle – A New Earth
https://www.eckharttolle.com/a-new-earth/

🌍 Access Consciousness
https://www.accessconsciousness.com/

✨ The Clearing Statement
http://www.theclearingstatement.com/

If you’ve ever found yourself reacting in ways you later regret… if you’ve felt exhausted by old emotional patterns… or if you’re learning how to stay present while everything inside you wants to defend itself—this episode is for you.

Come sit by the fire. 🔥