What does a 4am dream have to do with a 17-year-old pattern you never knew you were carrying?

Everything. As it turns out.

In this episode of Mindfully Disruptive, Patricia shares one of the most unexpectedly honest conversations she has ever had — with herself, on a morning walk, after a dream cracked open something she had been carrying since long before she had words for it.

This is not a tidy episode about healing. It is a real-time excavation of a pattern that was hiding in plain sight. On her nose. Like a wart she somehow never noticed.

If you have ever done significant personal work and still felt like something was running quietly underneath all of it — this episode is for you.

What You'll Hear in This Episode:

Patricia walks through a vivid early morning dream — the kind that comes during deep REM sleep between 3 and 5am when the unconscious is doing its heaviest processing. Expanding circles of blue and green. A mall. Her oldest son watching his father from a distance. And then — her ex-boyfriend, the one who broke her heart deeply, showing up to offer comfort while she stood with a completely puzzled expression on her face.

She breaks down what each dream image was doing.

Patricia traces the thread and names the pattern underneath all of it for the first time out loud.

She explores how this belief quietly shaped her relationships, her nervous system, and the way she received — or didn't receive — comfort, love, and support across decades of her life.

Who This Episode Is For:

This episode is for the woman who has done the work. Who has been to therapy, read the books, done the journaling — and still feels something running quietly underneath that she cannot quite name.

It is for the woman who grew up holding everything together and learned somewhere along the way that love comes with an expiration date she cannot predict.

It is for the woman who is standing at a threshold in her own life — career, relationships, identity, midlife — and feels something old trying to surface that is ready, finally, to be seen.

Ready to Find Your Own Wart?

Most of us are not confused about our lives in general. We are carrying one or two very old, very tangled stories that are quietly running the show.

The Untangling is a focused three session experience designed to help you find the knot — the one thing underneath the thing — and begin to loosen it.

Not therapy. Not a twelve week program. Three sessions. We find it. We name it. We start to set it down.

Because the comfort and the wound arrived together. You don't have to keep carrying them that way.

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Mindfully Disruptive is hosted by Patricia Rundblade of The Soulful Lion, LLC — helping women who grew up holding everything together reorganize their nervous systems through creativity so they can lead without force.