Somewhere along the way, many of us stopped feeling like life was a mission or that it had stakes.

Not because we stopped caring — but because we learned how to function without that deeper sense of meaning we once had as kids.

In this episode, I talk about losing touch with that inner orientation, acquiring fluency instead of depth, and the experience that helped me reconnect with something that had been there all along.

Not a political story. Not a self-help formula.
Just an honest look at what happens when you lose access to the part of you that always knew life mattered.

Most of us became self-conscious long before we knew the word for it.

Somewhere between elementary school and high school, we learn to watch ourselves — how we sit, how we speak, how we come across — often more carefully than we learn how to trust ourselves.

In this episode, I explore how the school environment, social pressure, and constant evaluation quietly shape self-consciousness, and why “be yourself” isn’t enough when inner authority hasn’t had a chance to develop yet.

This isn’t about blaming teachers or parents. It’s about understanding how self-monitoring gets inherited — and what it takes to move beyond it.

For the first episode, I share some of my personal story, the experiences that brought me here, and the questions and ideas I’ll explore in future episodes. This is a space for reflection, curiosity, and honest conversation about life and purpose.