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  • Ain't Dead Yet: Sister Shenanigans
    2026/05/01

    In this episode I start to unravel some of my confusion on the relationship I now have with my sister and the lengths she is willing to go to to get what she wants over everyone else involved.

    Her need to get her way outweighed even the goal of getting Dad home, despite all the work Mom and I had been doing to find the best plan for the both of them.



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    20 分
  • Ain't Dead Yet: Little Sister
    2026/04/24

    This episode is really more about my little sister than anything.

    It gives a little background into our childhood and maybe explains a bit about what she brings to our family dynamics.

    I do not want to demean or disrespect my sister. She'll never know how much I have taken up for her in all of this. I do believe a lot of her current behavior is because of grief.

    But sometimes you can go too far in your behavior and are no longer allowed an excuse.

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    21 分
  • Ain't Dead Yet: The Things I Didn't Know Yet
    2026/04/17

    During these weeks in rehab, my dad’s behavior changed, my mom withdrew, and the cracks in our family communication widened. I share the moments that didn’t make sense at the time — the confusion, the tension, the unanswered questions — and how those moments set the stage for the truth I wouldn’t uncover until later.

    To find the article, 'Nearby Daughter Most Likely To Be Mom's Caregiver' check this link:

    https://news.cornell.edu/stories/2013/08/nearby-daughter-most-likely-be-moms-caregiver?utm_source=chatgpt.com



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    18 分
  • Ain't Dead Yet: "Does the Right Hand Know What the Left Hand is Doing?
    2026/04/08

    In this episode, things shift from feeling “off” to becoming impossible to ignore. I start documenting everything—interactions with staff, inconsistencies in care, and moments that just don’t add up. What I witness raises serious concerns about training, communication, and how decisions are being made for my dad.

    As emotions rise and different family members respond in their own ways, I find myself trying to separate facts from reactions. It becomes clear that not everyone is seeing the same situation the same way—and that can make an already stressful environment even harder to navigate.

    This episode is about finding clarity in chaos, learning to trust your instincts, and realizing that sometimes the only way to stay grounded is to write it all down.

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    17 分
  • Ain't Dead Yet: Showing Up
    2026/04/01

    In this episode, I share what it felt like being at the rehab center every day while facing inconsistent care, lack of communication, and constant confusion from staff. What should have been a structured environment quickly started to feel chaotic.

    I also open up about the emotional toll on my family—especially my growing concern for my mom as stress and pressure begin to take a visible toll on her. As different personalities and reactions collide, I find myself trying to stay grounded in the middle of it all.

    This episode is about the exhaustion of advocating, the weight of uncertainty, and the early signs that things around me were more complicated than I understood at the time.

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    17 分
  • Ain't Dead Yet: He’s Gone. I’m Not. It’s Complicated
    2026/03/26

    In this short episode,

    I’m sharing something I never really knew how to say out loud—my dad has died.

    This is part announcement, part reflection, and part letting you sit with me in the uncomfortable middle of it all. I’ll also be reading a poem I wrote for his eulogy—because sometimes words behave better on paper than they do in real life.

    It’s not just loss, either. It’s the strange, messy aftermath—the things left unsaid, the relationships that don’t hold the way you thought they would, and the quiet realization that grief doesn’t always bring people together.

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    5 分
  • Ain't Dead Yet: One of the Hardest Things I've Ever Done
    2026/03/24

    This episode takes us to one of the hardest transitions in our journey — the last few days in the hospital and the move to rehab.

    There’s a strange mixture of relief and heartbreak in that moment.

    Relief that your loved one is moving on to the next step to maybe coming home… and heartbreak because you’re stepping into a new phase where nothing feels certain anymore.

    When my dad was moved to rehab, I remember that first night leaving him there.

    Walking out of the building felt wrong in a way that’s hard to explain.

    Every instinct says you should stay.

    But you can’t.


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    14 分
  • Ain't Dead Yet: When a Hospital Stay Becomes a New Reality
    2026/03/18

    How do you tell your parent their life is about to change?

    In this episode, I open up about the moment I had to tell my dad he has Parkinson’s while he was still in the hospital—and that rehab would be the next step in his journey. It’s a conversation filled with emotion, uncertainty, and the kind of honesty families face when everything suddenly shifts.

    This episode is about love, resilience, and navigating the reality of a diagnosis that changes the future.

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    12 分