You're allowed to be angry. You're allowed to be mad. Ladies, you're allowed to want to talk about politics and whoever wants to tell us to stop getting worked up...well, they can shup up. It's women's turn to talk, to be loud, to be angry. And everyone else can stop talking and be quiet.

"A lot of women, when they're young, feel they have very good friends, and find later on that friendship is complicated. It's easy to be friends when everyone's 18. It gets harder the older you get, as you make different life choices. A lot of women's friendships begin to flounder." — Zadie Smith

In the wake of my return from the psych ward I found myself wrestling with the loss of many friendships, but one in particular hit hard. It reminded me of another breakup I had eight years ago, which I wrote about in The Book of Moods. This is me, candidly, unfiltered, exploring the pain of what it means to lose a friend.

Marriage is hard. Marriage after kids is especially hard. Why aren't we talking about this? Once we accept this, which is the first step, what can we do about it? How do women survive and thrive with partners they love but who they now know, will never understand them? Insights from four married women, my own marital turmoil, Dr. Esther Perel and Dr. John Gottman.

My first episode three weeks out of the psych ward. I made this episode because....I needed to. It's conversations I had with women before I was committed and after. The theme: All women are hurting. All mothers need help. All women are insane and we shouldn't fear being put away for it. Featuring the story of Elizabeth Packard, women's sleep cycles (why we stay up later than men and shouldn't have to apologize for it) and the increasing rise of mental health issues with women and mothers.

“Then I understood I would never marry him. It's funny how one thing can make you realize something like that. One can be ready to give up the children one always wanted, one can be ready to withstand remarks about one's past, or one's clothes, but then—a tiny remark and the soul deflates and says: Oh.”

― Elizabeth Strout, My Name is Lucy Barton

We all have that moment. Whether we're dating, married or just meeting someone where we see right through the words, to the person behind them. Unfortunately, it's usually not the ideal time. In examining my own marriage, I speak with other women on the moments they knew - this person isn't right for me.

Three women on marriage, divorce, cults, trusting your gut and psychological insights on intuition, the female brain and why females make the best spies...yet the worst decisions in relationships.

I am an oldest daughter. I have a younger brother. I feel like there's a special love for him that is not given to me. I thought becoming a parent would help me understand it. But I can't know because I only have two daughters. So I go to Words of Women and ask other mothers... and daughters to tell me if they feel this, if it's real. If so, is it biological, is it inherent? Is it internalized misogyny? Or am I just too sensitive?

Five women. Two therapists. One struggling daughter who is now a mother. This is what I've learned and probably all we'll ever know about the complex relationship between mothers, sons and daughters.

You either love her or you hate her...Twenty-four hours ago I posted a clip from a podcast featuring Meghan Markle. I didn't realize it would lead to chaos. The Duchess of Susscex, it turns out, is about as divisive as Israel, Palestine, JK Rowling and all the other things we dare not talk about. But why? What makes her so divisive? I opened up an open forum Zoom and got four women and a therapist joined. I wanted to hear their views. See if they could change mine. What it turned into was a conversation about where our judgements come from, what it really means to have a platform, why we hate or love the people we do and everything that's so much more than Meghan and her chickens and blooming flowers.

“I feel I'm very sane about how crazy I am.” ― Carrie Fisher

Am I manic? Am I crazy? Because I feel fine. I feel better. Now that I feel good. Now that I'm chatty and awake and feeling back to being me, the new narrative is I'm manic.

And the past few nights, when I couldn’t sleep, I wondered if everyone was right. If I'd lost the plot. If my life was headed towards that image of Frances Farmer being carried away to the asylum.

So I start talking to women. I read more about Frances Farmer and her arrest and forced institutionalization. I talk to my therapist, then another therapist for this episode.

My conclusion: If you ask for too many people’s opinions, if you start opening yourself up to judgment and advice, you will start to lose sight. You will get confused and insecure and wonder if everyone's right and you're wrong.

Episode discusses: Mania, Jk Rowling, Frances Farmer, SSRIs, Crazy Labels and the other impossible stigmas of being a woman.

Thank you Dr. Sara Marchon, LCSW, DSW for your professional advice and wisdom. If you are looking for a therapist and enjoyed Dr. Marchon, check out her services at https://drmarchon.com/