OMG I FORGOT TO UPLOAD EPI 1 & 2 TO THE AUDIO!!!!!!!!! I DELETED THEM OFF MY COMPUTER, SO YOU WILL HAVE TO GO TO MY YOUTUBE CHANNEL TO LISTEN TO EPISODE 1 & 2, WHICH ARE ALREADY POSTED!! I AM SO SORRY!! IM BACK & I BEEN BACK!

Episode three is so fire, raw and real! I asked The Holy Spirit to help me with what I should talk about ("What my marriage taught me"), I didnt know where to begin because boy it's been so much! I got the revelation while running and boyyyyy did God drop it on me! "Run your race at the pace that I set forth for you to run at; remove the time and destination from your focus and just enjoy the journey." I remember being married and the biggest thing I dealt with was someone leading me somewhere God wasn't and him rushing me to do the things he felt I should be doing that I KNEW God hadn't asked of me.

Sometimes we will let people have an input on what we should be doing, how we should be doing it etc and when you are unclear of what God has said you should be doing in this season of your life; you will let those people persuade you.

In my marriage and on my walk with Christ these past almost 5 years, I have been at Jesus feet, and he has been the center of my life and everything I do. I knew what God was asking of me and it wasn't matching what my spouse was asking of me. This was my biggest deal breaker because you can't lead if you're not being led, and if I would have stayed he would have led me to hell.

This episode teaches the importance of knowing what God has instructed you to do, and being okay running your race as that pace even if you sprint past others, if they sprint past you or maybe you'll pass others who are running slower. Let God do what he needs to do in you so that you will live out to do his will.

I got divorced so you could get delivered.

Girl where have you been? Why haven't you posted anything? All your questions get answered in this season of the podcast. Not only will we go over where I have been but what God has done through my absence and also what he has taught me during my season of isolation. This season is going to be so good and I am thrilled to be back doing what I love so much! Chapters of my life have ended, healing has taken place, adjustments have repositioned me, and new doors have opened like no other. I pray that you are just as excited as I am because it's been such a long time and I am so happy to be back!!! SEASON 6, LET'S GO!

This concludes Season 5, The Marriage Season.

"Samuel never went to meet with Saul again, but he mourned constantly for him. And the Lord was sorry he had ever made Saul king of Israel." "Now the Lord said to Samuel, "you have mourned long enough for Saul. I have rejected him as king of Israel, so fill your flask with olive oil and go to Bethlehem." (1 Samuel 15:35, 1 Samuel 16:1)

Sometimes God wrecks our lives, not to destroy us but for the impact to hit at such a great magnitude that your life is forever changed. Saul got hit with his life changing moment on the road to Damascus, the magnitude was so huge that it stuck with him. It had to happen for him to become who God called him to be (Paul).

I am in the stages where I am grieving things that I once wanted, I am having to feel what I need to fill & process everything so that I don't continue to mourn in a place that God has called me out of when the time comes.

Grief isn't just a thing when people pass away, it is also when things die in your life but they are still alive physically. Grief is unpredictable, and it comes out of no where & sometimes it comes when you thought you had processed everything. God is okay with us grieving, you just can't stay here in grief & that is typically what ends up happening.

Often times we don't process grief, we stay in grief & we continue to mourn over things that God has already made his mind up about. Its human to be sad, angry, hurt, confused etc but we have to allow God to guide us through those feelings and emotions so that we can process them & not harbor them. Being honest and open about what you feel helps you to come to terms with the will that God has defined for your life & as you begin moving forward throughout this journey it will become your power. You will have the courage to move forward in things that seem impossible because you will be able to reflect on the previous times where you had to stand up against hard things, yet you made it through.

Grieving the former things.

Grieving the things I wanted.

Grieving what I thought we had.

Grieving what I thought we would do.

Grieving the changes that have taken place in my life.

But grief wont hold me hostage, I'm grieving now so that I don't hold on to things that God needed me to process so that when I get where I am going my feelings/emotions aren't in the way of what God is trying to do.