Before the guests, there was this. Episode 0 is my story, the one that made this show necessary.

One of my most trusted people, Chelsea Maldonado, sits down with me to ask the questions I'd never been asked publicly. And I answer all of them. I share what my life looked like before my awakening: the performative, self-sacrificing version of me who looked like she had it together but was quietly falling apart.

I talk about the divorce that turned my world upside down, and the long, painful process of falling apart before I could put myself back together. I share what ego death actually feels like in your body and why surrender isn't weakness. I talk about how I rebuilt my life from zero through meditation, journaling, and deep faith, and what it looks like to slowly, intentionally remember who you were always created to be.

This episode is the answer to why Becoming exists. If you're in a season of questioning, losing, or rebuilding, start here.

Highlights

(00:00) When performing became survival

(01:26) Chelsea takes the mic

(07:48) The cost of burying yourself

(08:02) What ego death actually feels like

(13:50) Why the shedding never stops

(15:38) Control was never about control

(23:58) The moment that broke everything open

(26:30) The relationship that nearly erased me

(31:34) The three months I didn't leave my house

(36:12) How I found my way back

(41:10) The power of going inward

(44:56) You are already enough

(49:41) The morning routine that changed my life

(53:40) Why I built this show

Resources

Chelsea Maldonado | Social Media Manager

LinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/chelsea-maldonado-5819b7216/

Host: Nicole Toudouze | Founder, Transcendental

LinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/nicole-toudouze-30074b1a/