I met someone in LA and immediately found myself doing what so many of us do: trying to prove I was worth getting to know.

In this episode, we're talking about validation, attention, self-worth, and why one person's indifference can sometimes outweigh the appreciation of hundreds of others.

Because the question isn't why they didn't see us.

The question is why we keep letting strangers decide whether we're worth seeing.

a little life update from california.

in this episode, i share a realization i've been having about how my first relationship - and the abuse that existed within it - may have shaped my relationship to intimacy in ways i didn't fully understand until now.

we also talk about procrastination, routine, perspective shifts, and a few things that have been making more sense lately.

This episode starts with me attending a physiognomy class and somehow ends with me unpacking wanting to feel understood.

We talk about the loneliness of being hyper-observant, the difference between attention and recognition, and why so many women feel deeply unseen despite constantly being looked at.

The girl that used to willingly make very self-destructive choices still lives in me. Nowadays the craziest things I do are nothing compared to who I used to be… but she still lives in me.
And she came out a little this morning.

I get into:

• hypervigilance and constantly reading between the lines
• feeling like you have to “solve” every interaction
• internalized shame and always assuming you’re the problem
• and how these patterns might come from the environments we grew up in

This episode is about what happens when awareness turns into self-blame and why everything can start to feel personal, even when it’s not.

It’s interesting how loud people get when it comes to correcting misinformation but where is that same energy when the information is actually correct? An episode about how statistics can become a convenient escape and how the focus shifts from the point to the detail.

Apparently I’m pro-cheating now. All because I said that cheating once doesn’t make you a horrible person forever and people did not like that. So let’s unpack it. What even is cheating? Why does it trigger us so deeply? Why do we need it to mean something so clear? And why are we so uncomfortable with the idea that people are more than their worst moment?

This isn’t about defending cheating. It’s about understanding people without losing your boundaries.

In this episode, I talk about the fear of being seen, why we’re so scared of being cringe, and how it’s affecting the way we connect with each other.

From moral superiority online to constantly judging each other, to feeling like everything is “too much” or “too weird” - it feels like we’ve created a culture where it’s safer to perform than to be real.

(and in the spirit of all that: my debut single Starving Heart is out now 🤍)