I have to laugh or I might cry...I am by no means an expert in the area. I share my personal experiences and the horrors of it.

On this journey at this point I am feeling the pull for connection with an intelligent, fun, honest man with integrity. I have not found that. This is not about replacing my husband but I will not settle for less than the type of man he was. So, I may never find that person and that is okay.

This has been a very teachable moment.

Be careful out there, you never know what you are going to get. It's a very vulnerable place to be. How does one navigate this ... I think my story might be a cautionary tail. (insert eye roll). At every turn you are being judged by your appearance and I get it...even when we meet people in person there is that first look. Attraction, chemistry ... maybe? This is not an easy place to be so if you are out there please share your wisdom.

From what I understand you need to do a lot dating before you find someone you might even consider going on a second.

...it might just have to be an organic meeting for me...

In this episode we talk about life after the death of their father, life choices, friendships, fear of other losses, how they navigate life and how their perspectives have changed.

Here are some questions our youngest daughter shared with us for this podcast. Unfortunately I didn't get them in time to share on the video but here they are in print.

1. What was it like to go back to life after your father died? Being a mother, wife, friend, employee??? It felt surreal, like I was watching my life happen from a distance, almost like a sort of dissociation. A lot of it was going through the motions after dad died.
2. What parts of your life feel emptier without your dad, and what parts have grown or deepened because of his influence? I miss being able to text with dad...he wasn't much of a texter, he always responded with an emoji more often than not, but he always responded. I'm not sure what parts of me have deepened or grown since he died, if I'm honest.
3. How has losing your father reshaped your sense of of yourself as a daughter, or simply as a person? It feels like there's a part of me that is missing, it will always be missing.
4. Do you ever feel pressure to take on an of your fathers roles within the family? No because no one can be him. There's no point in trying to fill the void he left because it would be impossible.

If you are an adult child who has experienced the death of a parent, a surviving parent or a someone curious about grief tune in this is worth the watch. To listen we are on apple, spotify, amazon etc.

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Two of my 3 daughters share their personal experience with grief with the death of their father. In this episode they share some memories of him as a father, and the unique experience of becoming a caregiver when your father is dying. Where they found support, their roles and how grief has changed over the past 2.5 years. This in only part 1 we have so much to talk about here.