For a long time, I thought I wanted the “normal” life.

The career.The house.The relationship that looked right on paper.

But after losing my mom, something inside me started to unravel.

In this episode, I talk about grief, coming out, falling in love, buying a house, selling everything to move into an RV, and the realization that I had been building a life that didn’t actually fit me.

This episode is about what happens when grief forces you to ask:

“What are we living for?”

And what happens when you finally start listening to the answer.

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I didn’t realize how much this affected me… until I started looking back.

For a long time, I felt like I was never anyone’s first choice…
and I thought that meant something was wrong with me.

In this episode, I’m sharing the friendships that shaped me—from high school to my twenties—and the moments that made me question everything about who I was.

But this isn’t just about losing people…
it’s about what happens when you finally realize you were never the problem.

If you’ve ever felt like you were “too much” or not enough at the same time, this one’s for you.

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In the last episode, we talked about toggling.
The different versions of ourselves we step into depending on where we are and who we’re with.

This episode is about one of those versions.

The calm one.

The one who doesn’t escalate.
The one who keeps things steady.
The one people rely on.

The one who gets very tired.

In this episode, I talk about what it really means to be “the calm one”—and how it can quietly turn into something else.

Something that looks like strength on the outside…
But feels like carrying things that were never yours to hold.

This is Allegedly.
And I’m The Source.

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The version of you that shows up.
The version that holds it together.
The version people don’t worry about.

But what happens when that version starts to feel… off?

In this first episode, we explore the idea of the “versions” we carry—and the quiet ways we learn to minimize our needs, even in moments where nothing is being asked of us.

Sometimes it doesn’t show up in big ways.

Sometimes it looks like something as small as… coffee.

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