After losing 120 pounds, I made the decision to have plastic surgery to address the loose skin left behind. But making the decision was one thing — getting close enough to surgery that it suddenly felt very real was something else entirely.

In this episode, I’m taking you into the weeks leading up to surgery, starting with the nerves I was feeling on the way to my pre-op appointment. I’ll walk you through that two-hour appointment, what happened, what I learned, what made me nervous, and the point where I realized I had to stop second-guessing myself and trust the decision I had made — and the surgeon I had carefully chosen.

And then life got very busy, very quickly.

We came home from vacation, our house unexpectedly went under contract, and suddenly we were looking at communities, considering a condo, and dealing with a completely different kind of whirlwind. For a moment, I wondered whether all of that happening at once was somehow a sign that I shouldn’t go through with surgery.

Eventually, I decided to see it differently.

Maybe everything wasn’t happening to stop me. Maybe everything was finally coming together.

This is another very real chapter in my plastic surgery journey after major weight loss — the nerves, the trust, the uncertainty, and everything life decided to throw into the mix right before surgery.

Next episode: what I bought, gathered, and prepared at home for recovery — because there was far too much to squeeze into this one. 😂