I remember walking this way before in suffering, lost in thought

and agony, habits of looking for the suffering, to try to recall it,

demons of doubt, my beloved Christ, we cleanse the seven seals

for each other, to cast out the demons. I remember

before the suffering, the pure, milky white substance

that gives birth.

I remember my devotion and let it save me. I remember before that, when there was no devotion and there was no me, no one to save,

no separate self, and this is my salvation, dried brown grasses,

and a rustling movement along the side of the path. When there are demons in the body, everything feels

uncomfortable and irritating.

I remember! I remember you.

Magnetu, angel of truth, dark blue,

and laughing with a space between your front teeth.

I remember peace and forgiveness with a slice of pizza in my stomach, all flour and cheese and tomato sauce.

spiderwebs trembling

under the touch of the setting sun.

Al-uzza , Fatimah, razbah, Johannes, Noah, dancing wind.

Hathor star nation, come to me through my emotional body.

my beloved, my beloved, the emotional body of God.

we melt the bindus into seed essence through our union,

they flow through channels and impregnate the Mandalas.

I bring my consciousness to my cosmic presence,

facilitating ascension through my physical aspects. through this

co-creative unity, each initiation brings me to greater self mastery, portals into the great mystery.

Be summoned, enter, become fused with,

be pleased, and become of the same taste...