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Have you ever been loved by someone… and still felt like you didn’t deserve it?

Or found yourself questioning a relationship, not because the other person did something wrong — but because something inside you felt uncertain?

In this episode, I talk about a deeper layer of unworthiness — the kind that shows up in relationships.

Sometimes it looks like insecurity.
Sometimes it looks like overthinking.
And sometimes, it quietly shapes how we receive — or even push away — love.

I share personal experiences of how this feeling has appeared in my life, from moments of hesitation and self-doubt, to patterns I didn’t fully recognize until recently.

But more importantly, I talk about what I’m beginning to learn:

That love is not something we have to earn.
And our worth is not defined by whether someone chooses us or leaves us.

As I continue growing in my faith, I’m learning to see love — and myself — through a different lens. A lens where worth is not based on performance, comparison, or approval, but rooted in the love God has already given.

In this episode, we explore:

• How unworthiness shows up in relationships
• Why we sometimes question love even when it’s real
• The connection between insecurity and the need to prove ourselves
• What changes when we begin to understand our worth through God’s eyes

If you’ve ever asked yourself, “Am I really worthy of love?”
this episode is for you.

You are not worthy because someone chooses you.
You are worthy because you were already loved first.

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Have you ever felt like you weren’t enough — even when everything on the outside seemed fine?

In this episode, I open up about a quiet but persistent feeling I’ve carried for years: unworthiness.

It’s not always obvious. Sometimes it shows up in subtle ways — in the way we hesitate to speak up, the way we question whether we deserve love, or the way we shrink ourselves around people we think are “above” us.

Through a recent experience and a conversation with a mentor, I began to see how deeply this belief has shaped my life — in relationships, in work, and in how I see myself.

But as I continue growing in my faith, I’m learning to see myself through a different lens — not through performance, comparison, or achievement, but through God’s love.

Because in God’s eyes, worth is not something we earn.
It’s something we are given.

In this episode, I share:

• How unworthiness quietly shows up in everyday moments
• The deeper root behind “not feeling enough”
• What changed when I began to see myself through God’s perspective
• A simple daily practice that’s helping me rebuild a sense of worth from within

If you’ve ever questioned your value — in love, in work, or in life — this episode is for you.

Email: elenaswy@gmail.com

IG: @elenaswenyu

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For a long time, I believed I knew exactly where my life was supposed to be.

California represented opportunity, energy, and possibility. After moving to the United States from China, I spent several years there and assumed that it would eventually become my permanent home.

But life took an unexpected turn and brought me to Kansas.

At first, Kansas felt temporary — quieter, slower, and very different from the life I imagined for myself. I kept telling myself that one day I would return to California.

And eventually, I did.

But after spending two months in Los Angeles again, something surprising happened. Instead of feeling inspired by the city’s energy, I felt overwhelmed by the noise and constant motion. And in the middle of that experience, I realized something I hadn’t expected:

My heart felt more at peace in Kansas.

In this episode, I share the story of returning to Kansas City and the deeper questions that came with that decision — questions about success, identity, cultural expectations, and what it truly means to listen to our own hearts.

Sometimes peace doesn’t come from chasing a bigger life.
Sometimes it comes from learning to listen to the quiet voice inside us — the place where God may be gently guiding us.

If you’ve ever struggled with where you belong, what success really means, or how to discern God’s direction in your life, I hope this conversation resonates with you.

Email: elenaswy@gmail.com

IG: @elenaswenyu