Short and sweet.

This episode is about the messy middle of manifestation: the quiet, awkward, in-between phase where nothing is wrong, nothing is happening, and you’re exhausted from believing without receipts.

If you’re in a filler episode of your manifestation journey, I see you and I love you. Come join the mess.

Last week’s holiday hit me like a cosmic frying pan, hotties. My sister brought her boyfriend home for the first time (love him, truly), and instead of being a normal human, I emotionally combusted like a girl in a YA novel. I’m talking jealousy, loneliness, a full four-hour cry, AND angel numbers attacking me on the highway.

In this episode, I break down the crashout, the realizations, the “down bad does NOT mean what I thought it meant” debacle, and the genuinely healing shift that happened once I finally stopped pretending I didn’t want love or softness or support. If you’re feeling behind on your manifestations, lonely, overwhelmed, or like the universe is ghosting you...same. Let’s talk about it.

This week I somehow turned a murder mystery party into a full-blown worthiness wound healing moment. I talk about the childhood moment that convinced me I was “too much,” how that wound has stalked me through middle school, high school, work, relationships, and even my manifestation practice… and then the UNIVERSE casually threw me into a party hosted by a girl with the same name as the one who originally excluded me. Comedy? Karma? Both. If you’ve ever spiraled about your worthiness, cried at your cubicle, accepted crumbs in dating, or wondered if you’re manifesting wrong...welcome to the mess.

Folding laundry, brushing my hair, and unpacking my messy situationship with the universe. ✨ This cozy, chaotic episode dives into rejection-as-redirection, divine timing, and why manifesting sometimes feels like the universe is ghosting you. If you’ve ever felt ignored by the powers that be on your manifestation journey, this one’s for you.

In this episode, I’m getting real about trauma-informed manifesting and why nervous system regulation has completely changed the way I approach manifestation.
For years, I thought I was doing something wrong — stacking affirmations, scripting, visualizing — and wondering why things still weren’t landing. But what I didn’t realize was that my nervous system didn’t feel safe enough to receive the very things I was calling in.

This week, we're talking about healing trauma, EFT tapping, and learning to trust divine timing instead of spiraling in self-blame. Because when your body feels safe, your energy opens up...and that’s when your manifestations start flowing.

If you’ve ever felt like you’re “bad” at manifesting, this one’s for you. You’re not failing. You’re healing.

I went to Japan expecting manifestation magic… and instead got bitch-slapped by triggers, travel fails, and divine lessons in self-growth. From losing my JR pass to crying on a Tokyo hotel floor while eating onigiri, this solo travel adventure turned into a full-blown spiritual awakening. In this episode of Hot Mess Manifesting, I share how Japan taught me self-trust, emotional healing, and the messy truth about manifestation and personal growth. If you’ve ever turned a vacation into character development, this one's for you.

Feeling lost in a sea of manifestation advice? In this episode of Hot Mess Manifesting, we're talking about how to trust your intuition, quiet the noise, and find what actually resonates for you.

In this episode of Hot Mess Manifesting, I (your host, J.R.) discuss the ongoing struggles with fear and limiting beliefs that arise even after taking the leap to start a podcast. There's an importance in acknowledging these fears, reframing them, and embracing the messiness of the journey.