Five days before heart surgery, Amy Liz Harrison opens her heart—literally and spiritually. In this intimate solo episode, Amy reflects on mortality, fear, surrender, and the surprising peace found by going inward. Drawing from Christian mysticism, neuroscience, meditation, and lived recovery, she explores what it means to stop striving, let go of outcomes, and find the calm center within—even when everything feels uncertain.

This episode isn’t about answers. It’s about presence. About the heart as both a physical organ and the seat of the soul. And about learning how to do hard things scared.

Key Takeaways

• Why heart illness carries a unique emotional weight—and how it mirrors vulnerability itself
• How Christian mysticism and The Interior Castle reframe spiritual transformation
• The difference between emotional regulation and emotional suppression
• Why surrender isn’t passive—it’s courageous
• How meditation and the parasympathetic nervous system support healing and peace

Key Timestamps

• [02:40] — Facing heart surgery and the loss of control
• [05:20] — Why heart illness feels different than any other diagnosis
• [08:45] — St. Teresa of Avila and The Interior Castle
• [13:30] — The nervous system, fear, and emotional regulation
• [17:05] — Meditation, ADHD, and 175 days of showing up
• [22:15] — The defibrillator, resentment, and letting go of outcome
• [27:40] — “Doing it scared” and finding the true center

Notable Resources & Mentions

• The Interior Castle — St. Teresa of Avila
• Father Richard Rohr — Falling Upward & Immortal Diamond
• HeartMath Institute
• Insight Timer (Amy as meditation teacher)

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Thank you so much for listening to Eternally Amy, a mom of eight’s journey from jail to joy. Amy Liz Harrison is a bestselling author, speaker, meditation teacher, and recovery advocate. To learn more, visit www.amylizharrison.com and follow @amylizharrison on all platforms.