CONTENT WARNING: This episode includes discussion of suicidal ideation. Listener discretion is advised. If you need support, Lifeline is available in Australia 24/7 on 13 11 14.

What if the parts of your story marked by shame are not the end?

0:00 – Intro: Jon’s Story

0:44 – Unpacking the word “bastard”

1:50 – The filth and hope in being adopted

3:11 – Content warning: suicidality and the lowest point

3:50 – The lawn mower epiphany

5:49 – The premature surprise

8:35 – Any excuse to skip church

11:37 – A hint at ministry

15:40 – The gardener’s prophecy and the elder’s question

20:56 – “Why be normal?” Pushing boundaries in faith

In this episode of Filthy Hope, hosts Rev Ness Williams-Henke and Rev Jon Humphries turn the lens inward as Jon shares his own life story, shaped by adoption, shame, despair, and an unexpected encounter with God. Jon reflects on growing up adopted, grappling with identity and suicidality, and the quiet moment that shifted everything, discovering he could not be snatched from God’s hands.

This episode explores how faith can take root in the most ordinary and painful moments, and how God can bring hope, calling, and purpose from stories marked by shame. It is a raw and honest reflection on despair, resilience, and the long journey of becoming who God is already calling you to be.

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