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In this episode of Let’s Examine Addiction Honestly, I open up about my lifelong struggle with alcohol and how deeply it has shaped who I am. I talk about my first experiences drinking at 17, the influence of my friends and family, and how alcohol quickly became woven into my social life and identity.

I share what it was like entering the Army, where drinking wasn’t just common—it was expected. I discuss the risky situations I put myself in, the embarrassing moments, the injuries, and the arrests that happened along the way. Looking back, I can clearly see how alcohol fueled so many of my bad decisions and strained relationships.

After the military, my drinking only increased. I was frustrated with my career path, angry at myself, and disappointed in the person I felt I’d become. I also talk about the impact addiction had on my relationships, including the pain of losing a child because of someone else’s substance use—an experience that still affects me deeply.

I also address my DUI, the consequences that followed, and the counseling that forced me to confront the truth about my behavior. For a long time, I didn’t like who I was, and alcohol was at the center of that.

Now, I’m working to slow down my drinking and move toward a life without alcohol. This podcast is part of that journey. I want to be honest about my past, take responsibility for my choices, and create a space where others can feel safe sharing their own experiences.

I end the episode reminding listeners that even if your past is messy or painful, you’re not alone. Change is real, and it’s possible—even if you have to rebuild your life piece by piece.

00:00 — Introduction & Purpose

Podcast intro, disclaimer, and first memories of drinking/smoking.

00:23 — First Experiences With Alcohol

Graduation party, Army training, early drinking patterns.

01:10 — Influence of Friends & Family

How friend groups and family drinking shaped early habits.

02:13 — Siblings & Different Paths

Comparing drinking habits among siblings; early exposure.

03:29 — Early Adult Drinking & Relationships

First sexual experience, Army years, early relationship issues.

04:33 — Alcohol-Related Incidents

Injuries, arrests, dangerous situations, and regrets.

05:24 — Post-Military Drinking & DUI

Transition home, becoming dependent, self-resentment, career struggles.

06:16 — Addiction, Parenting, and Loss

Relationship with addicted partner, DUI restrictions, losing a child.

07:04 — Acknowledgment & Accountability

Owning choices, recognizing alcohol’s role, shifting mindset.

07:51 — Recovery Goals & Closing

Slowing down, desire to quit fully, invitations for listener engagement.