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In this episode of Let’s Examine Addiction Honestly, I open up about my 15-year struggle with nicotine—from the first cigarette I accepted after Army training to the years of smoking, dipping, and eventually vaping that followed. I talk about how smoking became a social habit in the military, fueled by stress, downtime, camaraderie, and drinking. I share the embarrassing and funny moments, the long drives where cigarettes kept me company, and how deeply nicotine wove itself into every part of my daily life. Even after countless attempts to quit for my health, family, or finances, I always slipped back into the habit, especially when alcohol or other smokers were around.

I then explain how I eventually quit—not through traditional methods, but surprisingly through a mix of vaping and carefully guided psychedelic experiences in Ann Arbor, which helped me rethink my habits, confront emotions, and detach from cravings. I describe the physical recovery process, the mucus and breathing issues, and how life slowly improved once I finally stopped. I encourage listeners to share their stories, reach out for support, and remember that relapse doesn’t erase progress. Quitting nicotine freed up my life and gave me hope that I can tackle other addictions too, and I want others to know they aren’t alone, they deserve second chances, and they’re capable of change one day at a time.

00:00 — Introduction & Disclaimer
Opening the episode, explaining the focus on nicotine addiction.

00:13 — My First Cigarette
First experience after Army training and how it began.

01:11 — Smoking in the Military
Learning to inhale, smoke pits, bonding, and deployment habits.

02:47 — Smoking as Social & Emotional Coping
How smoking paired with talking, drinking, and stress relief.

03:41 — Alcohol & Nicotine Connection
Why drinking fueled cravings and relapse concerns.

05:57 — Years of Trying to Quit
Failed attempts, switching between smoking and dipping.

07:24 — Vaping & Psychedelics as Turning Points
Quitting cigarettes, exploring psychedelics, mental breakthroughs.

09:25 — The Moment I Finally Quit
Throwing out the vape, reduced cravings, emotional clarity.

11:00 — Health Improvements After Quitting
Lung recovery, mucus clearing, increased energy, lifestyle changes.

13:42 — Encouragement, Support & Closing Message
Reaching out, community support, second chances, and self-compassion.